What else breaks with a break up?

Break ups! The word itself sends an Ouch down your mind.. Doesn't it?

Break up has its own lil pain and its own lil pluses (You don't say?). Strange is, to many of us it sounds tragic and to many of you, it might sound freedom. This world is crooked I tell you.

Break up is not necessarily with just your girlfriend or boyfriend or love, it can be with your unspoken crush, your friend, your best friend or even your imaginary boyfriend (don't go judging me).

Love and heartbreaks, all that is common, very sad, very tragic and very hurting blah blah blah (sorry for the lack of enthusiasm, but been there done that sort of a thing and its pretty much an everyday thing) .. So my point being (yes I do have a point) the most heart breaking break up is .. When you break up with your best friend.. Yes.. Before you go saying whatever, give it a deep thought, what would you do waking up and not having that one person you wanna complain about your lousy day or bad relation, your dispute with family or crappy colleagues at work? What would life be if your friend didn't kick your butt and get you going when you are low, or when she/ he comforted you when you thought you couldn't get out of your deep pit of dark? What if you BROKE UP WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND? Would you ever be able to fix that feeling, or ever replace that one true friend?

My bets are, you cannot. You may replace love, boyfriends or girlfriends, jump from one crush to another but a best friend? My friend you are in for some deep serious shit if your best friend is gone.. To that matter, you know how it sucks when your BFF doesn't have time for you or suddenly starts behaving in this strange uncalled manner, isn't that like so damn annoying? When they don't understand that their tiny change in behavior is magnified cuz you're their best friend, they're dumb, why don't they just say what's bothering them instead? You wanna kick some sense in them and say "bitch don't you dare leave me or I'll haunt you after death" ..

Love is complex, it's scary. Friendship? It's easy, sorted but very hard to maintain and uphold.

Always love your best friend, because if I didn't wake up tomorrow, I want my best friend to know that even when I died, he/ she was one of the last people I thought of before Poofed. Lol!

Here's wishing, friendships always remain the most vital part of our life and they be a part of our life forever.

Peace.
Xoxo

If You Were....

(This One is for you Brenda, My BFF)

If you were a stranger, look what you've come to be,
My very own happiness, magical indeed.
If you were lost, look what you've found,
You and Me together, aren't we the most grand friends around?

If you were in pain, look what you've overcome,
Happiness surrounds you, it's just a tap around.
If you felt uneasy, tell me what's it about,
You never know Babeh, we'll both sort it out.

I never knew you'd matter so much, never at all,
But I can't imagine my life, without you at all.
Oceans across, we wonder when we'll meet,
I promise, I'll love you, forever will it be.

If you were star, I'd wait all day to see you,
If you were a star, I'd wish the sun never shone.
If you were a Wish, You're such a dream come true,
You are so dear, I fear losing you.

People may come, people may go,
It's a part of life, they leave a mark whenever they go.
You're my best friend, no one can change that,
You'll always find me by your side.

Lots of love,
Now and Forever,
Tash.

P.S. Love you to the moon and back. XD

Stranger I fell for.. (2)

Chase crashed on his bed as soon as he reached his apartment and groaned as he buried his face in the pillow. His TV screen roared to life at 8:30 AM his second back-up alarm just in case. Chase was in no mind to get off his bed when he heard his phone nag him again, he mumbled under his breath and flipped it on his voice muffled against the pillow he spoke "Yep?" almost nonchalantly. It was Noel who said "Dude, are you even going to make it to the classes today? I have a very short tempered Girlfriend you know?".
For the nice man Chase was he fought the urge to insult him and said "Be there in an hour's time Noel."

Chase was what seemed like Lost for some odd reason, he picked up his black hoodie and shredded pair of denims and headed for the shower, his favourite time of the day. He usually had the speakers blasting music while he took a bath "Rock and Roll Baby" he exclaimed as he took a shower and sung along the song "Rockstar" By Nickelback "Heyyy Eh I wanna be a rockstar" .. Chase always thought of music to be a wonder. It was what seemed to make him smile or allow him whatever he wanted to do by being a constant assurance. He draped a towel on his waist and walked out the shower quickly getting dressed and doing a silly double take in the mirror checking the bounce in his hair "Dimwit" he muttered laughing. He grabbed his bag and downed a glass of juice before heading off. "Almost forgot" He said to himself in amusement and ran to his bed to pick up his phone and checked for calls and shoved the phone down his denims.

On his way to the classes, Chase stopped at the "Bittersweet Bouquet" to pick up a dozen of fresh lilies for Lidia who was Noel's only girlfriend who tolerated his banter for some odd reason. Chase really thought of them to be very cute together. They fought and made out like crazy all the time. He tipped the fair blonde girl generously before he left the flower shop. Chase to his amazement got in his car and placed the lilies almost so gently and smiled. His thoughts ran back to earlier that morning, the girl he bumped in with, the way she cussed and how tiny she looked, the confidence she held and how he got tongue tied and wished he'd spoken something in return. Chase reached his classes and saw Noel waiting there with looks as if he were left alone with a Hound Dog, "Chase. Dude. Buddy. You're a life saver. I love you man. In the most Brotherly way yeah?" Noel blabbered and Chase shook his head and waived him away "Go celebrate already, or should I just tell her what happened?" he raised a brow mockingly. Noel patted Chase's shoulder and ran off with his lilies.

Chase looked up into the sky and pushed away his shades almost immediately. It was strange that the weather almost in no time turned from sunny and bright to a gloomy one. "Great! Rains again? Don't remember any good happening with rains" he shook his head and threw the bag on his shoulder and locked the door when suddenly it started to drizzle. Chase saw a few girls from the class staring at him as he ran into the premises, nothing new, he knew what girls in his class wanted with  him and he was just not interested. Chase was running and returning a Hi to one of the guys when he slipped on the wet marble and landed on this girl who fell down now pinned under him. "For the love of ...." She exclaimed while rubbing her  temples "Could you get off me?" She scowled. Chase couldn't believe he'd been so clumsy TWICE the same day and scattered to his feet and apologetically offered a hand to her "I am so so sorry Ma'am I .." there she was, the girl from this morning. Her face was not an easy one to forget. She took his hand and stood up and said "What is with this city? Everyone wants to throw you off to the ground and .. " she squinted at Chase "YOU" she said accusingly, "YOU are the guy from this morning. The same guy who .. What on Earth .. JESUS! Is this how you meet people in general or am I just that lucky to be falling down like a stack of cards.?" Chase couldn't help hide a pleased smile for some reason, he was glad he saw her, but felt guilty to have knocked her down. He pulled her up and spoke this time "Chase. I'm Chase! I didn't mean to do that honestly I got distracted both the times." She didn't buy it "Sorry. I think you should be Sorry that's what." she scowled and tucked her hair behind her ear gently not taking notice of Chase as other females would've and simply scrammed off without a moment's delay obviously pissed at him.

Chase couldn't help but frown this time and look at her stomping her feet and walking off to a different direction, how he wished he could convince her he was innocent. "Strike 2" was what he said and shook his head, he thought he wouldn't see her again. But he was surprised that he even thought that before until he met her now. He wished he'd met her differently, not just knocking her down every time he saw her and again to his wonder he was amazed he had even wanted to meet her .. Let alone differently. Chase's skin burned with a feeling he couldn't comprehend. He didn't want to attend his class, he felt a surge of guilt and curiosity in him since morning. Yet he wanted to know who SHE was. Chase strolled down to the Cafeteria and sat on the most distant seat possible throwing his bag on the table and his head buried in his hands. "Who are you?" he asked almost in surprise to himself as if the image in his head would answer his question. He plugged in his earphones and let it take over him as he obviously wasn't in the right mind and recalled him say earlier "Don't remember any good happening with rains" .. He smiled shaking his head and sunk into the Sofa shutting his eyes, pulling over his Hoodie over his face.


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Stranger I fell for.. (1)

Bright sunny morning, the golden velvet rays torched towards the city moving lazily, they gathered their strength and lit up the sky. Birds were chirping, the city sparkled at the view of the river reflecting a million crystals as a reflection on them.

Another morning for Chase, his usual morning started by a song playing in his ears every morning. The song was kinda personal, none of his friends knew he loved this genre of music too.. The Alarm he set was this song "Love walked In".. He shook his head and buried his face under the pillow trying to shake off the music without having to search for the phone.. "Ah, shut up" he groaned in his sleepy voice and finally gave up shutting the music down and stretched like a little kitten arching his back and yawning. He sat up the edge of the bed and rubbed his sleepy eyes and wore his slippers and pulled up his shorts and T-shirt and his socks, lacing his shoes he went to freshen up and combed his hair right. He plugged his ipod earphones in his ear and locked the house tight and ran down the flight of stairs. Chase was a handsome guy, tall, fair, very well educated, angular features, Honey Brown eyes, well mannered and very social. He lived alone, because he chose to. He had broken up recently, the girl apparently was over his love, was that even an excuse to break up? He was now moving on, keeping happy with himself and his circle of friends.. He played the guitar, did his cooking.. he had an amazing grin, probably any girl could fall for him just the way he treated them, chivalrously. He was very grounded, no arrogance, but a lot of trust issues ever since he broke up.

He loved the run along the side of the banks of the river, no one usually bothered this early to run on the pavement for a morning jog, but he liked spending time with himself, focusing on things that matter and music he loved pumping in him as he ran on the grey pavement along the river .. The only thing separating them was the huge fence which was of course a precaution laid.

He ran a while till he felt his phone annoying him for a long time, he knew who it would be "Noel" he exclaimed even before he saw the screen and flung it open and stopped running and caught a breath "Hey man" he said, the voice across the phone said "Chase my Man, don't tell me I caught you in action" he was laughing hard. Chase shook his head and slid his hand inside his pocket and leaned of the fence as he spoke looking at the sunrise "Is this your idea of an early morning hello, do you need me to get you something on my way to classes?" He inquired. "Chase You always .. I can't believe you think I call your for favours man." He corrected "Well Yeah, could you get some a bunch of lilies for Lidia? I completely forgot it's been a year today and she'd totally whack me if I show up with nothing" He said. Chase was amused and shook his head as he grinned "I got your back, Noel" just as he started turned and press the call dead he bumped into someone and fell on the ground with a thud and cussed under his breath. "You crazy?" he argued as he got up and saw a girl trying to get up and he bit his tongue "Oh, I'm sorry Ma'am I didn't realize... " He broke off and extended a hand to help her up.

"Oww, Oww.. Jesus!" She complained as if she were a kid. "Awh Man" she exhaled and checked her scraped elbow and facepalmed. "Miss" Chase still standing offering his hand .. "I'm sorry". She looked at him  with her hazel eyes, her hair across her eyes and her lips parted  and frowning, her cheekbones highlighting her facial structure, her skin the color of honey milk. She smelled like peppermints. "That's alright, I didn't see you either" she grabbed his hand and stood up. It took Chase a minute to react to that as he saw her tiny figure and heard her silky voice. "Oh My God are you Ok Mr.?" She inquired demanding since Chase forgot how to speak. "Uhm Yeah.." he swallowed hard and she shrugged "Ok then .. Have a good day" she waved him bye and ran to the other direction with her tiny bag across her back. Chase stood there watching her go, his eyes still wide and open tracing her figure as she ran.. He stood there for a while till he felt his phone ringing again and parted his eyes painfully from her and to the screen and walked again glancing back but she was gone ...

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What I hate about you

There's so much to say .. So much to know .. So much to discover and all that's unsaid...
If I wrote things that mattered you'd call it boring and usual .. If I said I was honest you'd think it as a lie, you wouldn't trust me.

Hate is attractive, Hate is as pure as love, it doesn't take an effort to Hate, Love takes effort and love expects a lot. Hate is effortless, it's easy!

I am gonna say a few things I actually HATE about you which makes me want to come back for you:

1) I hate how I feel when you're not around, busy and away.
2) I hate how I forgive you so easily for all the wrongs.
3) I hate how easy it is to talk to you.
4) I hate how a simple Hello makes me feel better.
5) I hate how you know what to say to make me feel better.
6) I hate how you blow things up out of proportion for no reason.
7) I hate how funny you can be.
8) I hate how you misunderstand me.
9) I hate how you Hate me or ignore me sometimes.
10) I hate how realistic you are.
11) I hate how you just give up, when we are so close to being Ok.
12) I hate how you call my name and that makes me wanna go insane.
13) I hate how you know when I am low, you just know it, I don't know.
14) I hate it when you don't give me time, then just expect me to be alright?
15) I hate when you make me want to talk to you all day, it's so addictive I can't say.
16) The way you say "I Love you" The way you say "Calm down" makes me want to listen to you.
17) When you scold me I want to listen to you, I want to correct myself, I hate it.
18) I hate how perfect you are and how you manage to keep calm with situations.
19) I hate how you say we're best friends and the next minute say we might never be
 friends forever.
20) I hate the mood swings you have, they are like whip lashes.
21) I hate how you like the same music, how you talk of music.
22) I hate how you read so much, always reading, makes me wonder..
23) I hate how sarcastic you are sometimes..
24) I hate it when you know what I mean but you want to hear it from me anyway.
25) I hate how witty you are.
26) I hate the way you smile, it makes me forget my worries. Your grin is one of a kind.
27) I hate how mellow you can be, but choose to be a dumass instead.
28) I hate how you tell me to "Talk to the hand" or just call me crazy.
29) I hate how far you live .. we can't meet.
30) I hate when you say "so you won't tell me?" when I don't want to tell you things,
 but I end up telling them to you anyway.
31) I hate how you ask me whether its ok, when I lie you ask "Promise" and 
I blabber things out.
32) I hate how you push off a topic unattended and never react.
33) I hate how you calm me down when I stress.
34) I hate how you call me cute names.
35) I hate when you have to go, when You're not around.
36) I hate how other people are more important than me sometimes to you.
 But that's how it is supposed to be.
37) I hate how you make me jealous. No one can do that but you.
38) I hate it when you lie to me .. Tell me tall stories, I know the truth but I let you go on anyway ..
39) I hate having secrets from you.
40) I hate to think of us not being friends forever, would be a dead end .. NEVER! 

There are so many things I hate about you .. Or might really like about you .. Or don't bother! UH! 

P.S. It doesn't even make sense why I love everything about you.


Peace,
xoxoxo

Whispers of the heart...

Mind is clogged, Heart has fear,
For what I love, Has got me here.
Fear of losing, Fear to end,
Something which never should have been.

Yearn to be held, Yearn to be loved,
Yet there's something, bothering deep beneath.
Something so beautiful is at a stand still,
What you can't have never should have been.

Love is simple, it's so pure,
Sanity at stake, yet so surreal.
Eyes ride joy, Lips sing romance,
Then why do I feel that it never should have been?

Hurdles that hinder, However high or low,
Mind that doubts, Yet Heart that's Mellow.
War within myself, To Love or Walk away,
Answers that linger, Soul Gives away.

Mind knows the truth, Heart doesn't agree,
Heart protests, The Mind doesn't perceive.
Songs of love, just a whisper in the head,
For I know it's true, Love is a play of the Devil's Gate.

Chords of tears, A few strings of fate,
Misunderstandings stir, These bonds might break.
I keep myself from falling, In these traps of bonds,
For Love is strong, Whispers of the heart.

Hopes will Rattle, Hearts might break,
Shadows will linger, Jealousy will make way.
Lets make a promise, You and I together,
We'll make things work, for us in our forever.

We'll make it easy, We'll make it work,
We love each other, Let's not fear.
Lets mark a place, date and time,
We'll make it happen with the right time, Make it Forever We Will Unite.

It's easy, Just a leap of faith,
It's just a chance you let your heart take.
It's not complicated, Just the heart unsure,
It has now imprinted, Every tune Crystal clear.

It's Raining, Bless the Sky

The air’s so dry, the heat is up,
The wind so rushed, it feels so glum.
The kid there looks so confused, weird and frowns,
I wonder why he looks right up.



Through the piercing sun and light,
There was an army of clouds riding light,
They made no sound, nor a promise,
All they did was lurk above.



The heat turned off, the air got bright,
The wind was right, it’s feels alright.
People now stare at the sky, wishing and wishing,
Pour down the mighty sky.


The winds stopped, so did our hearts,
We all wondered when it’d start.
Drop by drop, pearls of joy,
Trickling down through the sky.


Pearls of water, so pure and cool,
Whispering to the nature, making it bloom.
The sweet sighs of the people cheering the Sky,
It’s Raining, It’s Raining, Bless the sky.


Lives cheered the thorough rain,
The sound, the smell, that feeling again.
Washing the heat, the stress and worries for a while,
It’s Raining, It’s Raining, Bless the sky.


People soaked in the rain,
People watching drops trickle through the window pane.
People are out thanking the skies,
Oh thank you Lord, Bless the sky.

Love is pouring down us tonight,
Hearts will meet and they'll unite.
Falling in love and music that makes you high,
Mellow and Mushy thoughts, making it divine.


People in love will smile bright,
People with hate will think different tonight.
Love will conquer, hearts will unite,
It's Raining, It's raining, Bless the sky.

Let me Go!

The moment I reached the door of the strange house I knew something was wrong. The house was located at a wrong place, there was no light inside nor any significant sign of a living soul inside. Pitch dark. It was cute off from the vicinity of any city.

What occurs to me is why would I end up at a place like this? Very unusual and kind of creepy. If it wasn't for the cold wind that blew around so vigorously I bet I would have thought of this to be a dream. I stood out of the house for a while and tried to peek in to find any sign. All I could see was the white light of the moon reflecting from the stairs that led up with two separate flight of Stairs after the one that stopped at a Glass Window. From that Glass window is where I saw the white moon light reflecting and not reaching the dark room where I was looking from.

I took a deep breath, my hands and feet not coordinating for some reason. I just opened the front door which was strange because it was a slide door and how would I know how it were to open at my first attempt. Anything didn't make sense and I kept my calm and said to myself "One step at a time". For some strange reason my hands were numb and as useless as fake hands with no life in them. I tried to search for switch boards to see if there's any electricity in that old creepy house but every time I switched any button on, every click made one window close, freaked out as I was I stopped trying. "What the hell?" is what I had to say when I searched for my purse. My cellphone, chewing gums, money were all missing. "This is just stupid and not happening" is what I kept telling myself all the time.

I decided to move across the dark room and reach the hall that led to the flight of stairs. To my surprise this hall was beautiful. It was like out of all the rooms this wrecked house could hold, this was the only one that wasn't tearing apart. The furniture in the hall was covered with White sheets and the pale moon light set a very dramatic ambience. So I was just turning back to get out of the house which strikingly known for some weird reason, when I heard a very distant voice call out my name... I swear I felt a chill go down my spine when I heard my name. I did not want to turn but God knows why I automatically did and inspected around and saw no one. This just doubled my anticipation and I called back "Yeah? DO I know you?" The voice now came more clearer and from the glass window from where I could see the moon. It took me not one second to realize it was my Dad's voice, My Papa.... I swear I missed the first two steps of the stairs and jumped to reach out to him.. I couldn't believe I was meeting him.. When I Felt someone pulling my hand back .. I yelled and shrugged them once and climbed next 3 steps when I finally felt I saw my Papa smiling at a distance from the staircase where I stood and I threw my hands close in the air to reach him but someone just held me back so tight.

I kept begging and pleading to these people to let me go see him. I promised I'd be back for them but I couldn't see who pulled me down when I turned all I felt was a force pulling me back and on the other end my father looking at me with the most peaceful eyes and love, as amazing as he always was, full of life and full of spirit and joy. I kept stretching my hand ahead for some sort of miracle to happen so that I could break free and run and hug my Paa. Just one long hug would do the trick, just a little while to talk to him and know whether he was ok would do the trick. But why wouldn't these stupid people who held me back understand. I cried in fear and begged and pleaded to Let Me Go for sometime but they didn't let me and I kept telling my father to stay, please come back. He just stood there peacefully.

My heart was aching so bad I could feel my voice fainting and my stamina all gone, these people now pulled me down the staircase because of my lack of strength to fight back and out towards the door.. All the way I kept screaming my lungs out for my dad .. "Wait, please wait, Please..... Please ... just let me meet him...LET ME GO" and the next thing I knew was I was so scared and breathless and opened my eyes at 4 in the morning.


What? A dream? NO! Couldn't be it. I just unlocked my room's door and went out to the stairs and up and surely nothing happened. It was my house ofcoure. My Dog followed me where ever I went all around the house and licked my feet. I couldn't believe it was a dream. I was so close to meeting him. But if all that it takes is a dream to reach him.. I wish I slept always. I don't care the pain I feel after waking up but it atleast gives me a peace of my mind to know I saw him.. So close in person....

Dreams.... All that reality can't do to make you happy, a dream is all it takes to change that. I get a lot of weird dreams... Very weird and very random. But a few of these can really make peace with me. <3

Dedicated to my Papa <3 I'll always love you.

Peace,
XOXOXO

Cold .. Amazing song!!

LYRICS:

God and His priests and His kings
All were waiting
All will wait
As they go over

Held between heaven and hell
As they're dancing,
As they dance over and over
Over

Cold
Cold

Crimson and bare as I stand
Yours completely,
Yours as we go over

Sing for the lion and lamb 
Their hearts are hunting
Still hearts hold ever and ever
Ever

Cold
Cold

God and His priests and His kings
Turn their faces
Even they feel the cold

What you are given
Can't be forgotten
And never forsaken

What you are given
Can't be forgotten
And never forsaken

What you are given
Can't be forgotten

Cold

(I love this song and cannot get over it since so long now, just thought of sharing it with everyone) Do leave your comments.. This song makes me feel so at home .. Like this song is my blanket and I can sleep under it .. Love this song so much .. Hope ya'll like it too <3 Hope you feel the magic :)
PEACE

xoxoxo

My Pet, My love!

A lot has been said and seen about love. A lot has been done for love ... A lot unheard of. Love is amazing when its selfless and undying (Very dramatic, no?) but yes love of this nature exists for real (Hah, this is epic).

When was the last time you heard of selfless and true love? Well I did!! *happy dances* For me .. My pet .. My dog .. My baby who's name is "Marc" is the best example of love. He is one goofy thing. Gosh where do I start about him? (I know I sound lame but yes it's true).. Never ever has my dog (who is a very handsome cute looking German Shepherd) let me have a dull moment with him around.Well we got him when he was like 2 months old (rather young silly goof ball) and he fell sick when he got home cuz he had caught serious infection while travelling... We took him to another city to get treated and Thank Heavens he got okay! *touch wood*

He is what I call my "Babu" or "makuuu"... Marc has never ever bitten anyone till date... He has the most amazing eyes (Puppy Eyes DEFINED)... I mean come on ... he'll just look at us once and we'll be like awww... He is a smart baby.. Usually dogs grab whatever food you throw at  them..Him? No sir!! He will graciously open his mouth and decently grab his Chewies and sit down on his regular fixed place and chew 'em.(Aww my precious baby) He has this attitude problem (don't blame me >_> ) lol! When you talk to him and annoy him making silly and UNWANTED noises he will give you that look .. (The look he gives I am sure he tries to say - SHUT UP, WILL YA?) Lmao! He's more like a kid with my sister and jumps and runs around with her all day and has his "I am gonna mess with ya" Streak.. :D Gosh he even puts his cute lil head on our lap and just sits there with eyes closed :') He loves all of us!! Oh he is so funny .. He comes running inside the house and since the floor is marble he wouldn't know to pace down, hence he will stop running and just slide on the floor and dash into the sofa's or us! LMAO! Its a scene worth watching!!

Crazy Marc!! He loves food .. Well every dog does.. Yes! He knows when anyone at home is upset and comes and quietly sits down besides them and keeps looking at them (Trust me, We feel loved). Oh the best thing ever? When he knows I am angry and he is gonna have it bad .. He hides his head behind a small plant where only his head is hidden behind a small bush and all his body is out there hanging.. Lmao! Epic is when he hides behind flowers and his face is hanging out of flowers.. ROTFLOL! :P And the drama he does just so that we don't ask him to leave the room is OMG, he'll lick our hands and feet and look down and right into our eyes making us feel guilty and hence the Marc-einstein wins and stays in the room!

You know .. Pets are not a decoration piece or a style statement .. they are a part of your family. They love you more than you can love them and their love is undying. Try giving them a little more attention in your hectic life and see how much they have to do for you. Just felt like writing this down! I can't think of what would I do without my Marc!

Love your pets, they love you 10X more! :D

Peace.
xoxoxo

Just leave me be!

Ever wanted to yell out loud in frustration? Ever wanted to shut the door to the world and ask them to leave you alone? Life, philosophy and drama ... The vicious cycle you have got to go through everyday whether you like it or not..

People often miss out the larger picture in life and focus on the little "issues" that you have. Yes those pricks! Sometimes you rather prefer not growing up at all. Why do I need to grow up and do things people want me to do? Until we were kids people used to love our own individuality and pat our backs, now all of a sudden we are indecisive and naive?

Lets talk about it ... I as a kid was free, outgoing, loving and giving, possessive about people I love and care, protective of people, loved animals, petrified of being spoken bad of, detested being hated, honest to people I care and always kept my secrets to myself... Years later, what do you know? Well I haven't changed. I still possess all those characters in me. I am still friendly .. Still possessive and protective and honest. I still manage to get hurt when even a person I meant no harm speaks left right and center about me. The thing is people change and I am expected to change. Well so sorry this perfect world isn't my forte. We all grow up differently, my problem being I speak a lot mindlessly trusting every random Douche and taking it for granted that they have the same friendly attitude like I do.

It took me a long time to discover that all friends I "Thought" are my friends were really brainless, judgmental and ass kissing morons.Well yeah, to those of you who know I'm talking about you, SUCK IT!

Not everyone is perfect and Hey I am far freaking away from being one. But the little things I do .. make me someone. Just because I party doesn't mean I love it.. Just because I abuse doesn't mean I mean offence or seek attention, just because I make a point clear doesn't mean I want things MY WAY .. And Hey, just because I don't kiss ass like most of you do .. Doesn't mean I am missing on something grand. I rant because maybe I am moody and don't have faith in anyone to share my feelings so rant aimlessly to make myself feel better.. I cry not to get your attention but maybe because I no longer have the guts or the heart to take it anymore .. I trust someone and confide things not to be mocked at and be betrayed, it's because somewhere I made a mistake of having faith in you like, unlike you I still have sealed your secret off and it's still safe. I don't need to show off or seek attention .. If I wanted to .. You'd be one useless bag of dirt to me, I speak my mind makes me a Bitch, I am what we call "Bindaas" doesn't mean I am available .. I have my reasons to not talk to people, maybe its because I don't wanna hurt you by being way too honest. Respect people's privacy and please don't judge them because you don't know why they change....

To all those young people reading this, trust me this world can make you evil. For those of you who are such jerks, please bugger off and for those of you who think people are all nice and will stand for you .. Sooner or later you should know what I am talking about ...
One more thing .. Online friends, relations, groups ... It can either be amazing or a real heartbreak .. Don't ever let yourself be hurt. Because in reality you have an entire lifetime to look forward to.


Sometimes space is important .. Just for getting your line of thoughts right!!!
Peace,
xoxoxo

P.S. From me, my alter ego and all girls who go through allegations irrespective of their actions.

Sleep over it!

God must have some genius ideas when he created us, I mean it. He gave us all day to work, stress, play, do random activities and then .. Night! He could have made us zombie like, we could have had no need to sleep at all and be super alright with it, but he chose to break the day and give us night to sleep. Sleep? Such a small tiny activity which requires no thought .. Yet so powerful! 

We sleep, Why? I don't really know how many people really wonder, or is it just me? We would have not been half the people we are today if we had no sleep. REASON?? (Yep, logic required??) Just imagine a world with no sleep .. Sounds fun? Tiring? No more waiting .. No more restrictions eh? Naa!! If we never had to sleep and wake up the next day how would you fight off what you've felt all day? Let your unconscious self go wander and your eyes make peace.

I strongly have a lot of things to think of .. It's like even if I slept and woke up next morning it feels like I never slept because I keep thinking subconsciously .. It's like I never got rest .. Considering that, JUST THAT! Imagine, how would you ever fight off your feelings for someone you like and keep your anxiety low without sleep? How would you calm yourself off about something so terrible that happened, a bad accident or tragedy in your family .. If you slept if off the next day atleast seemed a little different .. Else you're mind is muddled. How would you feel about a break up or a fight if you never slept it off? You would keep crying or sobbing all day .. Thank God for the "Sand Man" he drugged you to sleep it off. The next day you feel no better no worse .. Atleast you get up on a different note? Life is what you make of it .. If you chose to see it differently .. Then hey .. SLEEP OVER YOU ISSUES .. God knows how he makes it a lil different .. But yes he does!! He makes your yesterday a lil less Painful and your tomorrow a lil more Bearable ... 

I rant, I blabber, I am gullible,I hurt, I love, I cry, I am super weird, super stressed, super curious.... Nothing helps me face haters more than sleep and the fact that I will wake up to a NEW TOMORROW .. Nothing makes me face loved ones more than the fact that I will sleep over all that's been done and be with them next morning.... It's the feeling that counts doesn't it? Skip to a world you know you want to escape reality and free from worldly indulgences .. <3

Sleep over your issues .. May it be a broken or twisted love life, family extremities, ego issues, tragedies .. We are born to face a new tomorrow .. Like we have always been :) 

PEACE

XOXO

Cliché's .. and how I interpret them!!

A Cliche is something you might come across everyday. Trust me on this one .. You use and abuse certain words and phrases by overusing it so many times that they no longer hold and charm.

Perfect!! That's what people like me need ;) Bahaha! (Well! Serious isn't my thing .. Fun calls and hey .. Who doesn't interpret what someone has to say in 5 different ways?) So .. A few Cliche words and phrases well usually .. (Don't blame me later) that I come across and I say very often are gonna be put down here in this blog! :D

Here I go with the Cliches and their crazy translation in my head when I see people using them a lot! :P (Bear with me).. ;) I might sound Whiney :D 

1. Calm before the storm - What I say is .. "Oh hell yeah somebody's gonna get whacked real bad baby" Bahaha :P Get your safety guards on ;) 
2. Better Half - Well usually when someone tells me "She/He's my Better Half", I go thinking ..   Yeah sure, Lets see what half's left of you after a month moron .. Feel that and let me know, what were you thinking calling 'em your better half? O_O
3. Give a Damn - Oh yes .. My kinds! Usually when people say this out loud, they mean it .. A few people who don't have this attitude well they just get Damned Roflol (PJ Roll) :P
4. Hold your horses - Bahaha .. This!! #EPIC .. My so called Gujju friends (NO OFFENSE) go .. where are the horses and I go .. BAM! (I'm the uncool person when noone understands the damn phrase) :/
5. I beg to differ - Has to be the most polite way to say .. Hey you .. Shut the F**k up man! You know whom you're messing with yet? O_O I'm right!! :P (Like I said .. real polite way to say excuse me shut up .. I think ..)
6. In your face - Oh Burn! This is such a feel good phrase!! It's like .. There you go Biyyyotch! I TOLD YOU SO!! In your face!! :D (Overdoing it? Yeah! Who cares?) :P I was right and you are so wrong .. Na na na na na :P
7. Kickass - Well .. This just means what It says man .. Bring It On!! I will do well no matter what!!
8. Life's a bitch - O_O Wow really? We all know that don't we? But you still ride it? Erm .. (Oops! Live it?) Best way of saying .. Oh whatever .. It sucks but hey what the hell .. :)
9. Number one fan - Well when I hear people saying that I wanna kick them so hard and say .. Hey I'm your number one critic .. FEEL IT? :P
10. Read my Lips - (Shhh!!) In the most decent way .. Well when someone says that .. It's just very hard to not get cocky or corny and say .. "And then Do WHAT?" ;) Hahaha! 
11. Work like a dog - Ok! I know this means like hard work and all! But really? Dogs are so cool man .. They sleep whenever they want and demand attention and eat whatever .. So "Are you really working out there?"
12. One in a million - *rolls eyes* Ji haan! You are one in a million aren't you? All of us are .. Let us not do the math! (Math scares me anyway O_o) Can't you just say .. You're the best or the worst and just get on with it?
13. Wake up call - Like come on .. Snap outta it man .. Reality Check? Tick Tock?? Ring a bell to you? No!! Well you might as well be a douche then .. TADA!
14. Couldn't care less - Well this is a lil subjective .. You can really mean it!! Like in disgust or detest .. Or you can just say it to make yourself feel better :) Either ways .. you said it YOU COULDN'T Care Less :D 
15. You can run, but you can't hide - This is ANNOYING X( I mean WTF? What does anyone even think before saying this? What are you a PSYCHO FREAKING KILLER .. ARE YOU CHASING ME WITH A FRIGGING KNIFE O_O Gosh!! Normal Terminologies please? :P 
16. Have a nice day - Oh half the time you're just forces to say this to people you even hate to look at .. Put up that grinny face and go .. HAVE A NICE DAY and in your head you say Oh Burn in hell Bitch! :P 
17. Every Dog has its day - Sure man!! VERY CONVINCING? Either your a great friend or astute freaking enemy in disguise .. I mean call me a Dog in the best way ever Eh? :P In any case .. yeah I'll get back atcha! :P 

Ermmm .. Yeah so I had like lots more of these but then .. It's never ending ;) Don't get ideas .. this is what I generally think when lame Cliches are thrown at me at random! :P 

Hope you guys have fun reading them! :D 

P.S. Hey Chill .. If you're a friend you know me better .. And if you're a stranger .. Erm .. Go on .. Judge away :D I GIVE A DAMN! :P

PEACE
XOXOXO

Where did it go wrong?

It Started off like a simple thing .. as easy as it could be. It's so hard to find good friends, but when you find the right friend and are happy with it things just have to screw up. Not easy to let go of any friends. Specially when you're such good friends in no time and there's so much to talk about inspite of the fact that the subject you chose was completely stupid or didn't make sense.
Isn't it funny when you don't know what went wrong and there you are .. wondering, tossing over and over, getting irritated, cursing luck or whatever situation that brought you to that fall. What went wrong? Why did it end? I mean there we were talking about stuff so random and fun last night? BBM'ing and gossiping how things were, how relationships were, how people and studies were, how we'd meet up and have fun hanging out ..  and BAM! Next thing you know you are punished for being honest about something you thought you should've warned him about .. you did! That hurt or pissed him off?
It's cruel really. I know so many people out there who'd be pissed with that one special friend who stopped talking for a completely stupid reason. It hurts actually .. More than the fact you want to kick that friend so bad for being a complete DUMASS and going to him/her and giving them a piece of you mind .. the fact that stops you from doing so is that .. IT SIMPLY HURTS! Why would a close friend you knew just simply be so illogical and stop talking? Specially when you're in the same circle for and everyone else is talking to you and you're talking to everyone .. that one friend will run in the opposite direction and yeah so will you .. Why? "DAMN IT!!" .. Is all you wanna shout out and probably feel your skin burning so hot with anger and hurt.
They say friends come for a reason .. Well do they get embarrassed and angry for a stupid thing and run away later? Wow .. that's real brave! Anyway .. this post goes out to all the friends who've been there and ditched your friend who somewhere deep inside really misses you .. Please be there ..

PEACE
xoxoxo

I wonder!

Life is busy, life is congested. Life is easy, life is complex. Whatever or however I describe life I am sure it would never remain certain. It's such a rush all of a sudden, so much to do, no time to wait and see through it. Time doesn't wait, true! Just a few months back there I was, wondering how life would be ahead. Whether I'll be somewhere or with someone loved and looks like time just passed by.

It's not easy to confess what you feel, specially when you are used to keeping to yourself. I know how I am the secret locker of stories for my friends and loved ones. So annoying and frustrating really to know you have people around to share your thoughts with, your views, emotions and life to that matter but you just don't have the strength to share it, reason being you are so used to keeping emotions to yourself. Is it just me? Nope! I bet there are so many other people out there who love to keep to themselves and survive just fine.

Lack of trust is what it is maybe? I don't know. Can't really say! But one thing's for sure .. People find a confidant in someone or the other all the time. What hurts is when THAT CONFIDANT doesn't realize he/she has ruined the very faith in them to that matter in anyone by just letting out a simple secret told to them. Its so easy to make friends really, very easy! But to genuinely sort the truest ones out from the lot is quite a task and may take forever.

I wonder where loyalty is lost? No longer do you see people you bank on completely because something or the other will come in the way. May not be a bad intention but something -- maybe their nature changes, attitude, find a better friend, may get busy with life or relationships, busy with a breaking family .. Something or the other keeps a man in today's time from being a loyal friend or a lover.

Just hope for the best for people in the long run. Lets make loyalty and faith a regular thing from a rarity! It's so amazing to know you have someone you can bank on and I bet so many of us yearn to be belonged. Be faithful, be honest, don't bitch about your friends or partners. You never know what hurt her .. You never know  what will be the last time you see her/him again .. Cherish life, love and Friendship! It's a blessing in disguise! <3

I wonder when life would be great for all, without any heartbreaks. Imagine a life so happy! What bliss it would be! :)

Be loyal, Be honest, don't lie and belong to someone! <3
Peace!!!
XOXOXO