Ever wanted to yell out loud in frustration? Ever wanted to shut the door to the world and ask them to leave you alone? Life, philosophy and drama ... The vicious cycle you have got to go through everyday whether you like it or not..
People often miss out the larger picture in life and focus on the little "issues" that you have. Yes those pricks! Sometimes you rather prefer not growing up at all. Why do I need to grow up and do things people want me to do? Until we were kids people used to love our own individuality and pat our backs, now all of a sudden we are indecisive and naive?
Lets talk about it ... I as a kid was free, outgoing, loving and giving, possessive about people I love and care, protective of people, loved animals, petrified of being spoken bad of, detested being hated, honest to people I care and always kept my secrets to myself... Years later, what do you know? Well I haven't changed. I still possess all those characters in me. I am still friendly .. Still possessive and protective and honest. I still manage to get hurt when even a person I meant no harm speaks left right and center about me. The thing is people change and I am expected to change. Well so sorry this perfect world isn't my forte. We all grow up differently, my problem being I speak a lot mindlessly trusting every random Douche and taking it for granted that they have the same friendly attitude like I do.
It took me a long time to discover that all friends I "Thought" are my friends were really brainless, judgmental and ass kissing morons.Well yeah, to those of you who know I'm talking about you, SUCK IT!
Not everyone is perfect and Hey I am far freaking away from being one. But the little things I do .. make me someone. Just because I party doesn't mean I love it.. Just because I abuse doesn't mean I mean offence or seek attention, just because I make a point clear doesn't mean I want things MY WAY .. And Hey, just because I don't kiss ass like most of you do .. Doesn't mean I am missing on something grand. I rant because maybe I am moody and don't have faith in anyone to share my feelings so rant aimlessly to make myself feel better.. I cry not to get your attention but maybe because I no longer have the guts or the heart to take it anymore .. I trust someone and confide things not to be mocked at and be betrayed, it's because somewhere I made a mistake of having faith in you like, unlike you I still have sealed your secret off and it's still safe. I don't need to show off or seek attention .. If I wanted to .. You'd be one useless bag of dirt to me, I speak my mind makes me a Bitch, I am what we call "Bindaas" doesn't mean I am available .. I have my reasons to not talk to people, maybe its because I don't wanna hurt you by being way too honest. Respect people's privacy and please don't judge them because you don't know why they change....
To all those young people reading this, trust me this world can make you evil. For those of you who are such jerks, please bugger off and for those of you who think people are all nice and will stand for you .. Sooner or later you should know what I am talking about ...
One more thing .. Online friends, relations, groups ... It can either be amazing or a real heartbreak .. Don't ever let yourself be hurt. Because in reality you have an entire lifetime to look forward to.
Sometimes space is important .. Just for getting your line of thoughts right!!!
Peace,
xoxoxo
P.S. From me, my alter ego and all girls who go through allegations irrespective of their actions.
