Victorian Age - 2

Hey guys! My post about Victorian Era is going to be incomplete If I did not mention the creepy and random facts of that age. It so happens that Victorian Era with all its charm and delicateness also had a whole lot of drawbacks. This post will cover a few points about them.

Like I mentioned in my Earlier post about this Era "Victorian Age" this time was full of new challenges, classes, meanings, subtleties and a lot of drama. Fact is, people were progressing and a lot of time in this period was said to be dedicated to discovery.

A few creepy aspects and random facts about The VICTORIAN ERA are:

• During this era, the government was running a "Poorhouse" facility where all the poor, mentally ill and people rejected by society were made to live. Many of these people who lived in these dirty and unclean houses were required to work to earn their board right and sometimes families couldn't live together.
• During the Victorian Era the food was a little creepy (Note: England has the best of food now). Victorians loved to eat every part of an animal (that set me off). Brains and specially turtle soups were a favorite then.
• The population of Britain exploded from 16 million to 37 million during the Victorian Era.
• London during the Victorian Era was famed for its pea-soupers (Fogs so thick you could barely see through them). Interestingly London had suffered from thick fog since centuries. The Victorian Atmosphere is greatly enhanced by the thick smoke and this creepy environment made possible the acts of people like Jack the Ripper.
• We all know about Jack the Ripper, known as "The Ripper" slaughtered 5 or more prostitutes working in the east end. The killer's identity could never be confirmed hence the legend surrounding the murders have become a part of research and speculation till date.
• The upper class and later the middle class had no means of entertainment then. One of the popular forms was for friends and families to dress in outrageous costumes and pose for each other (Vignettes). This sounds OK but can you imagine your grandmother dressing up as a Greek Nymph while everyone applauds? It's way too creepy. For Victorians this was normal and fun.
• During this Era you would be very lucky if you found a good doctor with a clean theatre. There was NO Anasthesia, no painkillers and no electric equipments to reduce the duration of an operation. It was outright horrific to get a surgery during this era if you read the description of surgeries.
• Victorian Era had freak shows. They used to have shows where - unusually short or tall humans, weird diseases or conditions were asked to perform. These were very creepy.
• How can I forget my fav.? Thanks to Victorian Era Gothic Novels were introduced (a literature that combines both horror and romance). It was this Era that gave us such great works of terror such as Dracula, and the Strange Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde. The Victorians knew how to frighten people and do it in a grand style (Hell yeah! Thank you guys, else I would have been deprived of Edward Cullen, and the Vampire Diaries) :P
• During this Era photography was new and extremely expensive. When a loved one died the victorians would sometimes get their picture with the dead corpse in their memory. This was called "Momento Mori." 

These are a few freaky facts about the Victorian Era. Well not everything is best, sometimes people have weird ways of life. Who knows, if they were alive today we might seem stupid to them.

Peace

xoxoxo

Who defines the society?

It is so mandatory for a few of us to watch what we talk. People in our society are so watchful of what others do. It's so very annoying and frustrating to keep a watch on what you do, how you behave or how you present yourself to others, and why all this? Just to entertain the damn society and keep ourselves in the good books.

People never realize what we go through. Seldom will they leave an opportunity to bring you down. Its like a lobsters world, whenever a Lobster tries to escape the small jar, the other lobsters will PULL IT DOWN. That's exactly how our society is, they are opportunists and sadists. None of them will be happy at your happiness or joys, but all of them will be happy when you're at you're lowest. People like to speculate, interfere and scandalize other's personal life. Leave alone good times, they wish they could do something to ruin the peaceful time you're having by starting some sort of unwanted gossip or drama. That's how decent the society is, That's where we live.

It's very sad to see people of higher society's judging randomly. I mean do they even take a look at their own messed up life? Similarly people from a lower society are not very receptive to broad notions. Either way everyone suffers. A young girl who wants to party late night with all good intentions of just hanging out till late cannot do so, and even if she does she has to sneakily get in the house. WHY? Because the pesky neighbor's or society are out there to ruin her happiness by talking utter crap about her being a slut, drunk, doping maybe, sleeping with someone or maybe even claiming she has an affair. The parents are well aware about their Girl and her intentions and they allow so, but when the rumors reach them, they unwillingly or maybe get carried away and stop such a life. Similarly the case with a guy.

Now not all girls and guys are the same. TRUE! But not all the guys and girls out there to ruin their family names either, right? I wish the society had some better business in life like LOOK AT THEIR OWN STUPID MESSED UP lives. People want to be left alone sometimes. The saddest part is when a person breaks down you never see people or even FRIENDS to that matter to help you out. Instead they say sad little things and speculate. They won't even say kind words or support you. Well then, lesson learnt. I mean yes we Cuss, some of them have tattoos and they drink and socialize. What is anybody's problem if they do? I mean why can't people let it be?

These people who define the society -- SCREW YOU!

What is the point of living in a society where you can't be yourself? And when you're yourself you're simply not accepted. In the end you go so confused in a way. It's because you don't know how to balance your life anymore. Do you pretend to be someone or be yourself, balancing life becomes such a STRESS! Whatever said and done, I would say, if you want to live your life, live it like you wish. People will judge, disrespect wear masks and say good things about you behind your back. Just do good, be honest to yourself. All the other people can go to hell, you're own judge.

Keep it cool! Live life king size cuz this too shall pass!
Peace
xoxoxo

Victorian Age

Whenever I talk of an era I would love to have lived in, I always end up saying "The Victorian Era". It is something that fascinates me so much. What's amazing about it is, the lifestyles, the flirting, the clothes, the drama, the creepy and vague stories, the wines and dines and of course the best of polished behavior.

Victorian Age or Era as you may put it was names after Queen Victoria and the sources say that she was very freaky and dark in her own way. Hence the Victorian Age was also as some of you may know it very dark, full of thrills, mysteries and dramatic back locks. There are many facts to be learnt from the Victorian Age (For a person like me at least, adore the mystery and subtleties).

There are so many facts and subtleties that I can't even describe to be so sweet. Well, I loved the fact that courtship was widely accepted and practiced during that Era. A man and woman had to be very careful about how they met and engaged in conversations. Balls and dances was the medium through which a young girl  was introduced to the society. Items of apparel such as fans, gloves and handkerchiefs were objects given meaning as "Love Tokens". The diamond ring that signifies innocence became popular as the engagement stone during this era.

Courtship during that era was more of a career move for men because the lady's property would be in the man's name.The Victorian times manners were as important as being educated. Some important rules and Etiquette's were:

• A single woman never walked out alone, her Chaperone had to be older and preferably married.
• If she progressed to the stage of Courtship in which she walked out with a gentleman, they always walked apart.A gentleman could offer his hand over rough spots, the only contact he was allowed with a woman who was not his fiancee.
• A lady should not attend a public ball without an escort, in fact no lady should be left unattended.
• An introduction in the public ball room must be understood by the gentleman to be for that evening only, after which acquaintanceship ceases, unless the lady chooses to recognize it any further time or place.
• Now this is Epic - A true gentleman always tips his hat to greet a lady, always opens doors, and always walks on the outside.
• A gentleman may delicately kiss a lady's hand, the forehead, or at the most, the cheek.
• Proper women never rode alone in a carriage with a man who wasn't a relative.
• She would never call upon an unmarried gentleman at his place of residence.
• She couldn't receive a man at home if she was alone. Another family member had to be present in the room.
• No impure conversations were held in front of single women.
• No sexual contact was allowed before marriage.Innocence was demanded by men from girls in his class, and most especially from his future wife.
• Dancing with the same man more than 3 times was considered as forward. However, only if there were some relation that was formed it was acceptable.

Did you all know though a woman was not allowed to say things or speak her heart but a few liberties were given to women. She could flirt with her fan. YES! Her fan! This behavior was within the protocol of accepted behavior. Here are what different signals meant. 

1. When She moved her fan fast - I am independent
2. When She moved her fan slow - I am engaged
3. When she fanned with her right hand in front of her face - Come on
4. When she fanned with her left hand in front of her face - Leave me
5. Fan open and shut - Kiss me
6. Fan half open - Friendship
7. Fan wide open - Love
8. Fan shut - Hate
9. Fan swinging - Can I see you home?

Isn't it cute? I love the entire feel of courtship and chivalry. For me a person with a chivalrous attitude is in my good books for life. These were a few trivia's about how courtship was held during the Victorian Age. This doesn't mean that everything was on a brighter side, there were a lot of negatives about this age as well. I will write about it in my next post.

Hope you all liked this post. It's something I adore since a very long time or since I could remember.

Peace

xoxoxo

Love in vain

They try so hard to start something they're both afraid of, love. They've been hurt a lot before and are scared again. "Is this love the right choice? Am I making a good decision? What if I end up being hurt again?" She kept asking herself. It's been long since that happened lets move on she thought.

Every love story has a base .. To fall in love is easy they say .. But some stories are never as easy as they seem. She started this love story with a guy who lived very far, they were away and never met each other. They were shy and they were both hopelessly in love. Who knew how this silly relation turn out? She gave all her time to him, in the midst of any situation she made it a point to be BY HIS SIDE without fail. No matter how hurt or how lonely she felt she always spoke to him, called him and told him she loved him. Like any other guy he said he loved her too, who knew what was true? 

Days went by, they spoke to each other through different mediums - internet, texts, twitter, facebook and messengers. They fought occasionally, well long distance relationships aren't a joke. They thought they'd lose each other if they did not keep tabs. She made time even when she was busy, he didn't even when he was free. He said it was complicated. Oh well? If you're ready to take up something as delicate as a relationship, you should've been careful, but since you're in one now, why don't you make time for her? She kept texting him and put in a million efforts to make it work, but how long could she handle this? With him it was all "Complicated" at home. 

She said it wasn't a problem that he was busy, that she will wait. She waited days, months and a year then for things to get better, but little did she know that 'promises are meant to be broken' and he believed the same.

Every day she would wait for a day to come where he did one thing right. Is it too much to ask? Why should everything be your way? "I ask you to do something you don't do it, when you ask me to do something I do it right away! Why this, it's so unfair, do I not feel hurt baby? Why don't you listen just once, you're so addicted to doing things your own way that you wouldn't listen anymore." 

She thought things would get better, he kept making promises that he would meet her one day, that he would  take care and make sure he kept his word everyday. Sigh, it did not happen. It was all too much to take. There's a thin line between love and taking people for granted, she felt she was unheard and not given her right. She wanted him to be available more, a year had passed by. She asked a few favors from him, like be where she could spend time with him online maybe? He was there no doubt, that made her so happy her heart overjoyed but then again other things and people were important to him as well. She longed complete importance and asked him to let go of the distractions JUST FOR ONCE, he said "you're making rules for me? Why? Why is everything with you about rules? Why can't I talk to others. You are such a sadist." She only wanted him to spare time for her JUST ONCE, but he couldn't do it. Instead he blasted her with accusations that she stopped him from making friends. She yearned for importance all to herself from him, was it wrong? He completely misunderstood her intentions. She didn't want to fight because she cared too much. She kept quiet and said sorry and called it a night. Misunderstandings is all she had in sight. How could she ever explain to him what he never understood? It had been a year they knew each other and he never understood?

This is love, or is it addiction? Does this mean She'll never get her due? She deserves happiness and all that from him, the distances are enough torture for both of them. He's a very nice guy and she loved him so did he, but when it came to compromises and promises only she fulfilled her deed. She wishes and wishes he changed and understood, that what she wants is for him to be best and sometimes give in to what she says. She only asks him for small favors not big. Just a day was not a lot to ask, then why can't he forget the rest who won't even love him as much as she, why baby why? Why wouldn't you see? 

She waits today and tomorrow or any day to come where he would understand how it hurts her to be apart and willingly accept that they need to work things out. She loves him and he loved her but there was too much to yet understand and they had it all! Love is NEVER IN VAIN! They always loved each other forever and a day .....

(P.S. Attempt at fiction)

Peace

xoxoxo

Caffeine, Yes Please

Hey Guys! Don't get me wrong there, the only Caffeine I am addicted to comes from my daily dose of coffee. Coffee? Yes please.  All of us have some or the other fav. beverage, cold drink (Hard drinks psst) and refreshments. For people who come in  my category "Coffee Lovers" a big Hi5 to you guys!

Well little do we know about our refreshing and much loved drink. For me, personally, my fav. hangout would be a coffee shop any day. There's just something about a coffee shop isn't it? (Ahem not the people, the aroma) As soon as you enter a coffee shop the rich strong Aroma calls you and automatically moves you and places you on the seat and gets you in the right mood. (Uggh, too much?) :P On a serious note, it's one time when you can sip your divine cup of caffeine and sink into the chair and feel your head go stress-free (Well works in my case). There are a variety of different types of coffees that we haven't heard of out of which we use only 2-3.

In humans, Caffeine acts as a Central Nervous System stimulant, temporarily warding off drowsiness and restoring alertness. It is the world's most widely consumed Psychoactive drug, but, unlike many other psychoactive substances, it is both legal and unregulated in nearly all parts of the world. There's an article by Dr. Rallie McAllister that says: "Coffee may have even greater benefits on the human brain, protecting it from degenerative disorders that lead to dementia. Recent studies suggest that habitual coffee drinkers have a lower risk for Alzheimer's and Parkinson's disease than individuals who abstain." But then people also say there are the negatives which are? Coffee may affect your hours of sleep, it contributes to CARIES of the teeth, it aggravates stress in people who drink it everyday (That's a bummer).

Now all that said and done, I still love my cup of caffeine in the morning, afternoon and evening (maybe more than that sometimes) .. It's not fair to not love this one amazing beverage created my God. It's sinfully amazing and helps people up during boring exams, long meetings, deadlines, stressed up day, boring conversations and so on. I'm sure as soon as it's time for your mug of coffee you'll automatically crave it. :P

Cheers to everyone who loves coffee! My fav. forms of coffees are: Double shot cappuccino, espresso, Cafe Mocha, Black Coffee and the simple beaten coffee of course! :D

Did you know?
1. Do not drink coffee if you have mental insomnia or anxiety.
2. Drink plenty of water to avoid dehydration.
3. Do not drink coffee if you are pregnant or nursing.
4. Coffee has four times the anti-oxidants of Green Tea, makes an excellent 
anti-depressant, and enhances performance and memory.
5. The FDA considers caffeine to be “Generally Recognized as Safe.” 
6. Use lower caffeine coffees: Arabica beans have lower caffeine than 
Robusta beans.  Darker roasted beans also have less caffeine.


All the information above was gathered from Google! Please refer Google for facts.
(Psst, if you're a patient I advise you to ask your doctor about your health and food habits)

Peace
xoxoxo

You're Next, Respect them

It's a matter of time till we realize how people behave. We take life for granted. We take each day as a routine, not understanding we are only growing older; Speaking of which I am very happy to say I CARE!

I see all types of people, young, infants, old, mid-aged, chirpy, sad, depressed, anxious, loud, conservative, progressive, dominating, carefree and more of them. What makes us is our background and personality. It's easy to flaunt your high standards in life and esteem, very little do we know about ourselves. We look up to elders for sure but have our own thoughts rattling behind in the mind, wanting something different. It's obvious our elders have a difference in opinion and you can't blame them, they grew up in a different time. They know the consequences of actions we take, hence they stop us from being ridiculed or hurt. 

Have anyone of you been to an old age home? Maybe some of you have and for those of you who HAVE, you know how old people are. Elderly people who are strayed and abandoned or left by their family and some people who willingly stay at the old age home because of the misery they're forced to see at their home is itself such a shame. Parents and grandparents, your life is what it is because of them. You owe what you have to them and their guidance. No one was born perfect, you've been carved by experiences. I wonder how young parents or children decide to alienate elders and treat them like crap when old people need them the most. The question is why? Did they not love you when you were tiny? Did they not help you walk when you were young? Did these sweet grandparents or parents not support you with anything you wished for when you needed them the most? Where did your duty to be a good son or daughter vanish? Why can't you take care of them any longer? 

Just because these elder people ask you for a glass of water, or can't hear properly, or can't keep up pace to your fancy life you decide to abandon them? It is shameful. People don't realize how these elder people are easily wounded by your stupid actions. They need love, they need a hug, they need peace in their hearts when they are old and they want to know they are belonged and loved just like any one of us. When you go to an old age home to visit these people, they do not want anything from you. WHY? Because they want you to sit next to them and talk to them because they are so lonely. 

Aged people just want to talk to you and share so much in an old age home, they want to express what they feel. I don't know about any of you, but it kills me to see an aged man/woman cry. They spent all their life believing they are loved and wanted and then .. they are disowned or too much of responsibility for you? People if you want to share true joy VISIT OLD AGE homes and spend time with them, Hold their hands and smile and laugh with them. All they need is love. 

Spread love, peace, share your chocolates, smile, hug and live life king size cause this too shall pass...

Peace

xoxoxo

Unspoken love

Why do you call my name?
When you have to go away,
Why do you make promises to me?
When you really don't mean it the least,
Tell me now, Why the mask!

Why do I hear you say things you don't mean to keep,
Why do you walk away when you want to hold me,
Why do you stay up so late?
I know it's because you feel relived, when you know I'm asleep.

Why do we share this bond so deep, is there something binding us deep!
Why do I wait when you don't show up, is it something I should think about?
Why do I expect so much, when I know there's nothing but excuses you speak,
You would give up so easy isn't it? I never thought this was the way to be.

You never told me, No we did not confess,
The love we shared was held in our eyes,
We never spoke to each other about it alright,
Then time came and seasons changed,
Before we knew it, it all started to end.

With all the love We hold so tight,
We never realized how time would fight,
We never thought a day would come,
Where you chose to leave but I held on.

And now that the day is here,
It's best to say "Move on" my dear,
That's how the day starts,
That's how the world Moves on .....

Coldplay for life

Hey All! You know, very little do we know about ourselves. They say (Whoever the 'they' might be) that the music you like describes your personality. I love music (who doesn't? Well you'll be surprised ) and it's the one force that sets me free. No matter what the situation. Depressed, sad, happy, high (erm whatever), low, cranky, moody, angry or bummed. So back to the point .. People tend to like a band for a long stretch of time and then suddenly not like it anymore. Nope!! Not the case with me (some bands yeah!) COLDPLAY is one band I can relate with so much.

I have been listening to the band since high school (trust me, the city I am from you'll be surprised to know how things are) it only grew in me in college, so far it still is the most awesome band ever. Coldplay is a British Alternative rock band and .. (yeah everyone who's a pal know's how I have this thing for English men!) they're bloody geniuses. Chris Martin who is also the lead vocalist has the voice of an enchanter (Damn, his wife is so lucky!) Jonny Buckland is the lead guitarist (what an innovator), Guy Berryman the bassist and ofcourse Will Champion the drummer. These guys are the most insane people ever (cuz they make music you can listen to over and over ..)

People say Coldplay is a band that always whines or is sad or listen to it when you're low (If you're one of them, get a LIFE). They are one of the most innovative bands ever. Their song "Yellow" has always made me smile, the way they use their creativity in music, notes and pitches is phenomenal. "Look at the stars, Look how they shine for you, and everything you do, it was all Yellow" .... They've had amazing songs namely Scientist, Speed of Sound, High Speed, Yellow, Viva la Vida, Trouble, fix you, lost, lovers in Japan, Shiver, life in technicolor .. I could go on .. Trouble is another amazing song, gives you some sort of motivation when you need some. Their rock can take you into a trance state! They not only concentrate on lyrics, but they take time to create brilliant music.

This band by far has been the most innovative band and for what it's worth here's what they've achieved over the years (for all you anti-Coldplay weirdos) Coldplay has won SIX Brit awards, 4 MTV Vma's (Video Music Awards) and here's the big one Seven Grammy Awards from 20 nominations. Their latest album is out now .. Mylo Xyloto which is in the awesome list again. "Paradise" is their new single (OMG its awesome).

Coldplay has sold over 50 million records worldwide! :P And I'll be a Coldplay fan for life! All I can say is .. Music by them is served with a dash of excellence.

Peace 

xoxoxo

Strange Mystery

There I was, all of a sudden, in a deep dark forest. The place seemed familiar, very familiar in fact. It was almost as if I had already heard about this forest. I was so terrified of the dark forest but felt a strange calm as though it won't do me any harm. The forest is as it should be isn't it? Its supposed to be dark, some rattling noises, bugs biting, huge trees, the sound of the wind and the huge moon's light piercing through the gaps between the leaves of the trees. The strange mist in the forest and the cool light breeze at night, the stars so much clearer and the soft grass and wild bushes. It's all how it should be. "God what now?" I wondered in confusion.

I heard a few faint voices in my head from God knows where exactly. They weren't perfectly conversations or voices I would have heard, but the voices, Ah yes they sounded familiar. Just as I started to focus more on the voices I realized I couldn't move. "Dammit" I said. Why couldn't I move? Just then I heard a the voices again, this time they were singing something and that made no sense? Why is this happening to me? To my surprise I pulled out my phone from my pocket and saw a very old phone in my hands "WHAT IS WRONG TODAY" I yelled. Why is this happening to me? Confused and dazed I quickly screamed for help, by this time I had lost all hope because the moment I screamed I couldn't! I just couldn't manage to scream loud, it was as if someone stopped me and all that came out was a very casual tone of HELP! Who would know I'm lost? Whom can I tell? I wondered where my family was and prayed they'd be OK.

I couldn't move at all and the next thing I saw when I opened my eyes was that I was in some Hotel. What? How? Where was I? Where on Earth? Who got me here? As soon as I gained consciousness I discovered I was at some hotel in our room where the TV was on. Slowly it started coming back to me. Oh right! I slept while watching this movie where there was this huge forest it must have been something I must have thought of a lot, hence the dream. I had goosebumps. The voices in my head were my family talking. I jumped and hugged all of them one by one making no sense to anyone. Soon we all went to the pool side to relax and then back to our room.

All was going as it may seem. But then .. I felt something bark and something wet touching my palm. I was terrified and before I knew it I was up. What a dream in a dream? It was my dog who always wakes me up when I oversleep. I was so confused when I finally woke up. Was that a dream in a dream? I was too confused myself to make sense out of it. All of it felt so real. All of it felt like it really happened. Or could it just be a Deja Vu? Dreams are strange. They either have meanings or lead you to something you missed, or need to do, or anything you ever fantasize about. Curiosity is the word then.

This was one unique dream. A dream in a dream! But it never felt so real and alive, so vivid and conclusive.. Maybe someday or sometime I will know what it meant ......

(Actually had a more vivid dream)
Peace
xoxoxo

Edward and Me

It's really very awkward to explain yourself when somethings don't really make sense. When someone asks you about your dream guy or dream woman you would least expect them to say "Edward Cullen" (eh, don't look at me). Well take me for example (for those of you who know me HAHA yourself). It's hard to understand how anyone could possibly fall in love with a dead monster or as we know them "Vampires".

As strange as it may sound, we're all aware of the phenomena "Twilight saga" all thanks to Stephenie Meyer (How I love her for creating Edward Cullen). Who knew that a tall, pale faced, awesome scent, mesmerizing man with an extraordinary presence could sweep a million people away (There I go again huh? Well there's no stopping for me). Though a fictional character Edward Cullen made it possible for a regular girl like me to actually believe that a perfect man (though dead technically) exists. "HE CAME, HE DRANK BLOOD and HE CONQUERED MY HEART" as lunatic as I might sound its true.

Generally, GUYS (uggh, the real men, the boring men all around) detest in fact loathe Edward Cullen. It's very simple why, it's because since My Edward Cullen (yes he's mine) came in action all these humans (the normal guys) get lectures from their girlfriend's, fiance's and their wife's of course over how they should be like him (Bahaha I have so many example of this case). It's very Simple here, every girl wants a man who would love and protect her, be faithful, honest and protective (so he was a little possessive so what? It was hot!) and so chivalrous (head over heels where chivalrous people are concerned), giving, loving, the most amazing crooked smile *Swoons* (oh yeah I could go on). Coming back to the point, girls love LOVE! Be it a romantic Vampire. Guys would rather favor Jacob Black and why? (this is interesting) Because they think he is more of a man!!?? WTF really? Just because you're scared of being chivalrous and loving and devote yourself you rather call the cute-ass Edward GAY? GET A LIFE! Edward is the best thing to reality!

As far as I am concerned I will always be in love with him. Just imagining Edward Cullen brings a smile to my face. Love happens (true isn't it?) and I am in love with since 5 years now; With a man called "Edward Cullen" who did nothing extraordinary, but with his amazing charisma and nature blew me away! (Robert Pattinson I love you so so much thank you for making Edward a reality).

So yeah, call me crazy, call me weird, lunatic or Goth! I wouldn't care :) It's very simple, I love Edward and Yes he's fictional and Yes he's a vampire. SO WHAT? I LOVE HIM! (In your faces all you douches)...

Peace
xoxoxo

Something's unsaid

It's been a  while since I had some peace, it's been a while since I went to sleep. The pressure that I blame for this, is actually nothing but things inside me. I try to convince myself today, if you sleep all the pain will go away,  the night comes and I wait like a nocturnal beast for sleep to take over me.

It's something that's been troubling me since long, but what exactly? Could it be it? Am I worried for peace? People talk about how things bother them, slowly and steady I see myself understanding what they mean, I might have some fear or some problem I might know of, but don't give it importance and push it away. Lock my fears, lock my feelings and push them away. Yes that might be it.

Fear of losing someone I love so much. I don't want to see the next day without him. Can't imagine what the world would be like without him. Frantic as I may seem but that's the truth. Prayers, wishes and hopes is all I seek. Please get well soon I say in my heart, I cannot meet you now, they won't allow. You're going to be OKAY I say! Lying down alone in the dreaded room he said "Bring me back home". I put a smile on my face with agony and pain in my heart and say "I will bring you back home, its a promise". Is it a lie that I said? Is it killing me day by day? Days pass I see him there, getting worse, he stops talking to us, its such a pain, I want you to say "I'm Okay". He knew the possibilities and knew the case, but to keep us strong he still smiled away. A month of being alone in there, he really got tired and pale. We prayed, we prayed and we prayed.

There came a time when I couldn't hold it back and broke down to which a friend stood up and said "Let him know how things should be". I went the next day, next to his bed, looked at him and said "Don't worry about how things are outside, I'm there, you're daughter, I'll take care of it. You just take care. Love you and Miss you". Who knew what he heard?After days did he looked at me, he saw me and his eyes filled up with tears, I kissed his hand and that's all the time I had. Two days to three that's the end of what I can remember. Insomnia took over me so deep.

A year later I still try and sleep but things and that scene still haunts me. I would've done something, but what? Promises are meant to be kept, is all I think, I am sorry. No one knows how close were we. All they do is taunt and move on. To them I can only say "Wait, you'll know how it feels when you've known a loss so deep". I pray and hope no one gets hurt and that everyone have their loved ones healthy and happy.

(This is dedicated to Papa, you'll always be my Angel, My most lovable adorable Papa, day in and day out, everytime and anything I do I always think of you!You're the best!) :)

Peace!
xoxoxo

As time goes by ..

Very often I wonder, how people differ. Everybody has different needs, wishes, wants and hopes. It's amazing how we were blessed to have a human life and strange how all of us have different meanings to life.

I always wonder whether all of us think the same (obviously we don't) but then I know we don't!! How is it we react the same when we're not connected? We need to analyse life in particular - our life and its meaning. As a kid I always imagined the world to be divided into small different planets (As in I always thought every country was in a different planet. Yes Imaginative weird kid) and that we would travel spaceships to reach a place. Well all that thanks to Cartoons and lots of skillful stories told by parents (How I miss that!)

Time passes by and you start realizing you're required to grow up. You need to change and get ready to FACE THE WORLD. As time goes by .. you are molded and fed with things you need to learn and other 100 unnecessary things. You not only learn how to forgive and forget but also keep grudges. You're expected to be a gentleman or a lady with etiquette's that mark you different from others. You're expected to out stand so many and yet there you are, nothing has really changed you, the little kid inside you still needs the same things from life. Family, friends and as you grow up a few more needs. As time goes by you have no time for yourself, you're constantly under a load.

Society decides whether to label you good or bad. If you are socially "Acceptable" you're the crowd who did the best. If you're socially "Unacceptable" you must have done something to piss someone off really bad, whether intentionally or not. As time goes by people choose to remember you for the deeds you've done, good or bad doesn't matter. As time goes by you will lose people close to you inevitably (by nature or destiny). As time goes by you discover life in deeper sense and by the time you do, you would have lost and gained so much, you would just wish you knew how to make things right.

As time goes by people change, for the better or worse (experiences matter). As time goes by you value relations and leave the kid inside you far behind and realize how time flew away.

Time is such an important yet neglected matter. We take it for granted or just don't bother, for a few of us we really bet on time but things don't go as planned. You learn one thing in life and that's TIME FLIES and LIFE GOES ON .....

Peace!

xoxoxo

Romance and Break-Ups

It's funny I should write a post on this (for those of you who know me SHUT UP) subject. Love, Romance, Courtship, Dating (and for those of them who're Internet dating) what can I say? It seems Love is in the air everyday (well am sure not everyday for the same people but randomly).

I see my friends, both girls and guys when they're love. It's such a cute sight. I mean really, they keep on blushing, smiling and talking sweet things about their new love all the time (I keep saying Oh wait, I know whats coming up for you next sucker). No really, they're so happy when they're into a new relationship, they're glowing, sweeter and more attentive. Everything is so smooth for people in love (GENERALLY) for the first few months. They go out for dates, long drives, dinners, movies, take breaks from their offices or even leaves, send bouquets, text messages, long calls and what not. Its all great till it reaches its saturation point. 

Once a girl starts with her "Please change your habit" or "Can't you miss the match for me?" (specially when its a ONE DAY match) and when a guy starts with his "Whom were you talking to" or "Who was that guy" or "Don't talk to that guy he doesn't seem nice" (specially since the other guy has been a friend longer than the douche you're dating currently) it starts adding up to the WTF list. Slowly they start obsessing and nagging (well in case of a few mature adults its still cool). Then comes the phase where they stop sending flowers or the frequency of dinners or movies or dates gets low (Obviously, they realize their pockets got lighter and " Ladki to patt gayi" agenda). Hence, the girl starts doubting and obsessing, hence the guy gets annoyed (oh yeah this is a typical chain of reactions) and this sets off some major drama. Now the Guy will start bitching about his girl saying she is ruining his life and dominating him (Duh!! Male ego) and the girl goes for her sympathy round of votes and gossips how the BF has changed and what she thinks (Oh yeah, over dramatic chick!).

A few friends of the GUY (his friends would even hit on his GF, or try to convince her, or play neutral! Yes friends mai bhi Variety hoti hai) tries to talk through her. And the GIRL's friends question and debate on morals and values and relationships (and also gives her own life example in relationships) after all this EPIC drama they either make up or break up after a lot of effort put by both the lovers. Oops, now ex lovers? (bahaha that's how weird love is? All the love disappears? All promises forgotten? All the feelings go KaPutt!?) After a while the guy says NO MORE RELATIONSHIPS for me and his friends take him out for  a party and BAM!! He meets this chick at the party and wants to be JUST friends!! There you go .. The Vicious circle of LOVE is About to start ALL OVER AGAIN (Hai na ekdum?)

The girl says no more relationships and finds comfort in talking about it to some guy and slowly develops feelings for him! Blah (same old same old). SO DEKHA BACHO? Pyaar vyaar sab dhoka hai, sab apna kaam karo! Lmao!

Love is a subject to risk. Please read the Conditions Apply* matter carefully.

P.S. - All this is what I see almost in all my friend's relationships Bahaha! Please don't take it personally, or do! Who cares! :P Keep it cool!

Peace!
xoxoxo

Scandal bhari duniya

Hey guys! So the other night I happened to catch up with my close friend (just over the phone sadly), we were amazed as to how much we could talk non stop (Uggh yes girl talk). So we started talking about the latest happenings (Jee haa, gossip mangta hai). We sort of couldn't help laughing at the fact that we couldn't gossip AT ALL! All we knew was "hmm really? Aisa kyu hua? Arey tujhe bhi nahi pata, meko bhi nahi pata" Dammit! That's how poor my Gossiping skills are!??

It would be safe to say I FAILED the goss test. Coming back to current situation. BOSS! The other girls I know (the types I can never be friends with cuz of their dumass attitudes and lack of know how) are such awesome gossip queens. Pheww! I mean a few girls I know are fantastic (no pun intended they are fantastic in anything unproductive) as far as MAKING STORIES is concerned. Hats Off Dramaqueens! Ask them Anything .. Woah I mean ANYTHING (I bet they'll even know what you dreamt of) and they'll know it. So this girl was gossiping with my friend (poor thing my friend she was scandalized) and started off with a typical "Hey, so nice seeing you here, we should meet more often" (YEAH RIGHT!!) And then she goes "Do you know our school friend XYZ is now working for XYZ company and she has an affair with the boss" (hathoda) Fact was: The school friend happens to be the boss's friends daughter hence they talk family like. 

She started with the other gossip "Did you know your best friend (she was talking about me) has a lot of attitude problem?" "She hangs out with so many Guys" (bahaha!!) My friend couldn't stop laughing and texts me all of this and tells her in return "Yeah I know, she also loves to kick ass wonder what she'll do to you when I tell her this" (epic reaction from the gossip queen was) OH no! I told you all this in confidentiality, You are such a back stabber (At this point She and I was ROTFLOL). 

Like really, people have no bloody business in GENERAL except butt-in everyone's personal life (Like dude mind your own freaking business for a change). People want to gossip about you, Make stories about you, add their own Twist and opinions and spread rumors about you and also see you suffer. Hence Scandals bhari Duniya hai yeh! (GET A LIFE!) If you ever come across people who talk crap or low of you, or hold opinions based on rumors please DISCARD them from your life.

You are beautiful, You are honest and You are the best (Yeah we rock the world) So if anyone tries to do harm to you, rest assured they're jealous and you're doing SOMETHING right to piss them off (lol). Stand Strong, Stand strong and Be what you are. No one can replace you!! Gossip is never remembered, your deeds are.

Spread peace, spread love, Stay Cool, live your best! This too shall pass! 

xoxoxo

Family peace

In general you are so involved with the daily affairs of life that you often neglect the one most basic and important part of your life. (drums rolls) Yes, Family. You might say what the hell? I do give time to family and what the hell does she know about me? Right? Well I may not know much about anyone in particular, but what I am certain of is, Family keeps you sane.

They say  the small things in life matter. Well why not? When was the last time you cancelled a weekend plan with friends just to hang out with your brother or sister or parents? Even your sweet grandparents to that matter. You know the best things in life are unnoticed. Not because we choose to, it's just because we are so busy trying hard to achieve so much. It's not wrong to say we earn and establish ourselves to stand out or even be accepted socially. Damn these social meetings and compulsions of life. They make us so busy and sometimes even pretentious (don't act all shocked).

Family is the one most inevitable part of our lives. Personally speaking, it's the one thing that keeps me sane and going. If it weren't for them it would be impossible to survive. Sure we have friends, best friends, girlfriends, boyfriends and social networking sites and Internet pals, but they can't give you that peace you get with one touch of your Mom's hand on your head. That calm and secure feeling you feel once your Dad says "Don't worry I'm there". The gossip you share with your brother or sister so carelessly. No one makes you safer and at home than your own family does. I might be wrong in case where a few of you might be concerned, but then mostly it's the same for all.

Take some time off the busy social meet-ups and plan a good weekend with your family. It isn't necessary to book an exotic vacation or a grand outdoors. I bet even a nice long weekend at home would be equal fun (oh it does wonders). The point being very simple, FAMILY COMES FIRST. We realize their value when someone says something unpleasant or even taunting them we are on our Guard. Or even worse when we lose someone from our family. Make sure its never too late, because regret makes one weak.

Hug each moment as a blessing and spend time with family. They were, are and will always love you in the most unselfish manner.
Peace! Share love, spread smiles, be happy and keep your spirits high! Be blessed! :)
xoxoxo

Stray or not, Behave

One thing I see very often is, small kids throwing stones for playtime. You know what makes it unbearable? They throw stones at Dogs. Now I understand if they are harassed by them or they've had bad experiences, But seriously? (like in a very angry tone) I am affirmative it's the one thing a child learns from parents. Elders throw stones at dogs, hence children copy (There! The influence has done the harm).

I don't understand why people need to throw stones at stray dogs even if they are so harmless. A poor little dog sitting under shade of a tree in summer is for no reason made to run for its life just because some IDIOT (definately HUMAN) is in a cranky mood or wants the place clear. Wow (Pity we have such people)!! For crying out loud did the poor speechless, harmless and cute fluffy dog bite or growl at you? No!! He was just sitting there to cool off. Another example being people kicking small puppies (specially guys who're out there to impress girls by being "cool" in some stupid way). Kyu boss? Did the puppy do anything but wag its tail and approach you for love or a lick? To such people out there rest assured things are going to come back at you fair and square.

I was so touched to see this movie "Chillar Party". All these kids get together and march along to save a cute stray dog "Bhidu". Now that's called ethics and pure love. Please stop asking your kids to throw stones at dogs or cats. They also feel the pain when they are hit by a stone. Dogs bleed too. Only difference is they lick it off because they do not have anyone to look after them. They are speechless! All they can do is limp when they are hurt or not move because they are scared.

For those of you who think Stray's are vicious, just so you know, they were young once too and people like yourself or others hit them and made them like this. If you can care for humans, show humanity to animals too. They expect nothing from you, and even if they did expect something from you its just a little love and attention.

People mercilessly drive over small infant puppies and dogs on the road, leaving them half dead. It's sickening guys, its so sad. Love them. Adopt a puppy change their life. 

Peace out! (phewww!) 

P.S. I am an animal lover. It hurts me to see people mistreat animals and specially dogs. Please spread love. Peace! xoxoxo

Why the drama?

So I came across this person i refer to as a "uggh" friend. She happens to be very friendly (well don't be fooled). She tells me her entire sad life story and keeps me updated (like I care, like seriously she's not even a friend). And at the end of the entire conversation I get the 'Oh so Famous Dialogue' which was "you don't know what I am going through". I mean seriously, grow up people. You're not the only people in the world with a freaking problem.

There are 7 Billion people in the world now (oh yes, thanks to twitter trends I know #7billion) and you think you're the only person in the world TARGETED to get the worse? I mean what is the possibility like? So coming back to the point. I mean this is general now taking her as a common example. (a) We all are humans - (DUH!?) Yes i know. Hence, we all have some problem or the other. (b) People in general from starting of life since we were babies and till date face problems.

It is right to say that we face problems and situations in different frequencies. But seriously? Magnify the entire situation and make yourself look like a damn DAMSEL IN DISTRESS? GROW UP! A very interesting fact is, If everyone were given a different person's problem the person would gladly hug their OWN problems. We know we are capable of making peace with our own situations. So chill!! Period! With time comes a solution (like with power comes a responsibility?) Yes!

Till then Amigos, Chill, Pray, love, share your chocolate, Eat and Enjoy. This too shall pass. Amen!

xoxoxo

Live it up

Hey guys,

been quite a while since i blogged, and coming to think of it, I don't really know why! :)

You know, it really is a short life, a blessed short and lovely life. To some of us it's nothing but routine, dull and pointless (specially if you keep planning and it doesn't work out the way it really should) and to many its a boon, a blessing, another chance to prove something or to someone. To so many it's another day that they feel God let them live and see the sun rise again.

Life is a struggle, a challenge, a chance, a test and a conquest and maybe a million other meanings to so many others. The point being? The point being "Live it Up"!

Have you ever thought of how you plan life so perfectly and forget in that effort how to REALLY live it? You plan a perfect date for the next day and for some reason it JUST doesn't go right?

You pray for someone to be safe and happy, but life just has other plans for them? You plan on doing that simple college project but a silly misunderstanding with your group effects the entire result? You know you love your family and know nothing will ever go wrong but something so untoward happens that it devastated your entire life? You are at the peak of your job and know you're just going to get that promotion but for some reason it all goes wrong!

Life is all about 'Dealing with the unexpected'. You believe and live with your ideas so long that if any changes come by, we fail to accept it and sob for them to happen for so long, the time lost is yours. The amount of stress we deal with at all phases of life, from being a student in school, to a student in college or at a job, with rivals, stress over a stranger staring too much, or stress over even stressing is just a big overload!

The very simple and neat purpose of life is to Live it as it comes and take a lesson. Move on, life or time doesn't wait, it keeps moving, you will see the next day, you will meet new people thats how it's supposed to be. The main FUNDA of today is, live life with all joy you can. Tomorrow is going to be too late to think of how I spent my yesterday. Make the most of it. Cheers! <3

The more you're happy the less you suffer. The more you forgive, the less you'll hate. Afterall "It's gotta be a good life" :D Cheers!!!