Just leave me be!

Ever wanted to yell out loud in frustration? Ever wanted to shut the door to the world and ask them to leave you alone? Life, philosophy and drama ... The vicious cycle you have got to go through everyday whether you like it or not..

People often miss out the larger picture in life and focus on the little "issues" that you have. Yes those pricks! Sometimes you rather prefer not growing up at all. Why do I need to grow up and do things people want me to do? Until we were kids people used to love our own individuality and pat our backs, now all of a sudden we are indecisive and naive?

Lets talk about it ... I as a kid was free, outgoing, loving and giving, possessive about people I love and care, protective of people, loved animals, petrified of being spoken bad of, detested being hated, honest to people I care and always kept my secrets to myself... Years later, what do you know? Well I haven't changed. I still possess all those characters in me. I am still friendly .. Still possessive and protective and honest. I still manage to get hurt when even a person I meant no harm speaks left right and center about me. The thing is people change and I am expected to change. Well so sorry this perfect world isn't my forte. We all grow up differently, my problem being I speak a lot mindlessly trusting every random Douche and taking it for granted that they have the same friendly attitude like I do.

It took me a long time to discover that all friends I "Thought" are my friends were really brainless, judgmental and ass kissing morons.Well yeah, to those of you who know I'm talking about you, SUCK IT!

Not everyone is perfect and Hey I am far freaking away from being one. But the little things I do .. make me someone. Just because I party doesn't mean I love it.. Just because I abuse doesn't mean I mean offence or seek attention, just because I make a point clear doesn't mean I want things MY WAY .. And Hey, just because I don't kiss ass like most of you do .. Doesn't mean I am missing on something grand. I rant because maybe I am moody and don't have faith in anyone to share my feelings so rant aimlessly to make myself feel better.. I cry not to get your attention but maybe because I no longer have the guts or the heart to take it anymore .. I trust someone and confide things not to be mocked at and be betrayed, it's because somewhere I made a mistake of having faith in you like, unlike you I still have sealed your secret off and it's still safe. I don't need to show off or seek attention .. If I wanted to .. You'd be one useless bag of dirt to me, I speak my mind makes me a Bitch, I am what we call "Bindaas" doesn't mean I am available .. I have my reasons to not talk to people, maybe its because I don't wanna hurt you by being way too honest. Respect people's privacy and please don't judge them because you don't know why they change....

To all those young people reading this, trust me this world can make you evil. For those of you who are such jerks, please bugger off and for those of you who think people are all nice and will stand for you .. Sooner or later you should know what I am talking about ...
One more thing .. Online friends, relations, groups ... It can either be amazing or a real heartbreak .. Don't ever let yourself be hurt. Because in reality you have an entire lifetime to look forward to.


Sometimes space is important .. Just for getting your line of thoughts right!!!
Peace,
xoxoxo

P.S. From me, my alter ego and all girls who go through allegations irrespective of their actions.

Sleep over it!

God must have some genius ideas when he created us, I mean it. He gave us all day to work, stress, play, do random activities and then .. Night! He could have made us zombie like, we could have had no need to sleep at all and be super alright with it, but he chose to break the day and give us night to sleep. Sleep? Such a small tiny activity which requires no thought .. Yet so powerful! 

We sleep, Why? I don't really know how many people really wonder, or is it just me? We would have not been half the people we are today if we had no sleep. REASON?? (Yep, logic required??) Just imagine a world with no sleep .. Sounds fun? Tiring? No more waiting .. No more restrictions eh? Naa!! If we never had to sleep and wake up the next day how would you fight off what you've felt all day? Let your unconscious self go wander and your eyes make peace.

I strongly have a lot of things to think of .. It's like even if I slept and woke up next morning it feels like I never slept because I keep thinking subconsciously .. It's like I never got rest .. Considering that, JUST THAT! Imagine, how would you ever fight off your feelings for someone you like and keep your anxiety low without sleep? How would you calm yourself off about something so terrible that happened, a bad accident or tragedy in your family .. If you slept if off the next day atleast seemed a little different .. Else you're mind is muddled. How would you feel about a break up or a fight if you never slept it off? You would keep crying or sobbing all day .. Thank God for the "Sand Man" he drugged you to sleep it off. The next day you feel no better no worse .. Atleast you get up on a different note? Life is what you make of it .. If you chose to see it differently .. Then hey .. SLEEP OVER YOU ISSUES .. God knows how he makes it a lil different .. But yes he does!! He makes your yesterday a lil less Painful and your tomorrow a lil more Bearable ... 

I rant, I blabber, I am gullible,I hurt, I love, I cry, I am super weird, super stressed, super curious.... Nothing helps me face haters more than sleep and the fact that I will wake up to a NEW TOMORROW .. Nothing makes me face loved ones more than the fact that I will sleep over all that's been done and be with them next morning.... It's the feeling that counts doesn't it? Skip to a world you know you want to escape reality and free from worldly indulgences .. <3

Sleep over your issues .. May it be a broken or twisted love life, family extremities, ego issues, tragedies .. We are born to face a new tomorrow .. Like we have always been :) 

PEACE

XOXO

Cliché's .. and how I interpret them!!

A Cliche is something you might come across everyday. Trust me on this one .. You use and abuse certain words and phrases by overusing it so many times that they no longer hold and charm.

Perfect!! That's what people like me need ;) Bahaha! (Well! Serious isn't my thing .. Fun calls and hey .. Who doesn't interpret what someone has to say in 5 different ways?) So .. A few Cliche words and phrases well usually .. (Don't blame me later) that I come across and I say very often are gonna be put down here in this blog! :D

Here I go with the Cliches and their crazy translation in my head when I see people using them a lot! :P (Bear with me).. ;) I might sound Whiney :D 

1. Calm before the storm - What I say is .. "Oh hell yeah somebody's gonna get whacked real bad baby" Bahaha :P Get your safety guards on ;) 
2. Better Half - Well usually when someone tells me "She/He's my Better Half", I go thinking ..   Yeah sure, Lets see what half's left of you after a month moron .. Feel that and let me know, what were you thinking calling 'em your better half? O_O
3. Give a Damn - Oh yes .. My kinds! Usually when people say this out loud, they mean it .. A few people who don't have this attitude well they just get Damned Roflol (PJ Roll) :P
4. Hold your horses - Bahaha .. This!! #EPIC .. My so called Gujju friends (NO OFFENSE) go .. where are the horses and I go .. BAM! (I'm the uncool person when noone understands the damn phrase) :/
5. I beg to differ - Has to be the most polite way to say .. Hey you .. Shut the F**k up man! You know whom you're messing with yet? O_O I'm right!! :P (Like I said .. real polite way to say excuse me shut up .. I think ..)
6. In your face - Oh Burn! This is such a feel good phrase!! It's like .. There you go Biyyyotch! I TOLD YOU SO!! In your face!! :D (Overdoing it? Yeah! Who cares?) :P I was right and you are so wrong .. Na na na na na :P
7. Kickass - Well .. This just means what It says man .. Bring It On!! I will do well no matter what!!
8. Life's a bitch - O_O Wow really? We all know that don't we? But you still ride it? Erm .. (Oops! Live it?) Best way of saying .. Oh whatever .. It sucks but hey what the hell .. :)
9. Number one fan - Well when I hear people saying that I wanna kick them so hard and say .. Hey I'm your number one critic .. FEEL IT? :P
10. Read my Lips - (Shhh!!) In the most decent way .. Well when someone says that .. It's just very hard to not get cocky or corny and say .. "And then Do WHAT?" ;) Hahaha! 
11. Work like a dog - Ok! I know this means like hard work and all! But really? Dogs are so cool man .. They sleep whenever they want and demand attention and eat whatever .. So "Are you really working out there?"
12. One in a million - *rolls eyes* Ji haan! You are one in a million aren't you? All of us are .. Let us not do the math! (Math scares me anyway O_o) Can't you just say .. You're the best or the worst and just get on with it?
13. Wake up call - Like come on .. Snap outta it man .. Reality Check? Tick Tock?? Ring a bell to you? No!! Well you might as well be a douche then .. TADA!
14. Couldn't care less - Well this is a lil subjective .. You can really mean it!! Like in disgust or detest .. Or you can just say it to make yourself feel better :) Either ways .. you said it YOU COULDN'T Care Less :D 
15. You can run, but you can't hide - This is ANNOYING X( I mean WTF? What does anyone even think before saying this? What are you a PSYCHO FREAKING KILLER .. ARE YOU CHASING ME WITH A FRIGGING KNIFE O_O Gosh!! Normal Terminologies please? :P 
16. Have a nice day - Oh half the time you're just forces to say this to people you even hate to look at .. Put up that grinny face and go .. HAVE A NICE DAY and in your head you say Oh Burn in hell Bitch! :P 
17. Every Dog has its day - Sure man!! VERY CONVINCING? Either your a great friend or astute freaking enemy in disguise .. I mean call me a Dog in the best way ever Eh? :P In any case .. yeah I'll get back atcha! :P 

Ermmm .. Yeah so I had like lots more of these but then .. It's never ending ;) Don't get ideas .. this is what I generally think when lame Cliches are thrown at me at random! :P 

Hope you guys have fun reading them! :D 

P.S. Hey Chill .. If you're a friend you know me better .. And if you're a stranger .. Erm .. Go on .. Judge away :D I GIVE A DAMN! :P

PEACE
XOXOXO

Where did it go wrong?

It Started off like a simple thing .. as easy as it could be. It's so hard to find good friends, but when you find the right friend and are happy with it things just have to screw up. Not easy to let go of any friends. Specially when you're such good friends in no time and there's so much to talk about inspite of the fact that the subject you chose was completely stupid or didn't make sense.
Isn't it funny when you don't know what went wrong and there you are .. wondering, tossing over and over, getting irritated, cursing luck or whatever situation that brought you to that fall. What went wrong? Why did it end? I mean there we were talking about stuff so random and fun last night? BBM'ing and gossiping how things were, how relationships were, how people and studies were, how we'd meet up and have fun hanging out ..  and BAM! Next thing you know you are punished for being honest about something you thought you should've warned him about .. you did! That hurt or pissed him off?
It's cruel really. I know so many people out there who'd be pissed with that one special friend who stopped talking for a completely stupid reason. It hurts actually .. More than the fact you want to kick that friend so bad for being a complete DUMASS and going to him/her and giving them a piece of you mind .. the fact that stops you from doing so is that .. IT SIMPLY HURTS! Why would a close friend you knew just simply be so illogical and stop talking? Specially when you're in the same circle for and everyone else is talking to you and you're talking to everyone .. that one friend will run in the opposite direction and yeah so will you .. Why? "DAMN IT!!" .. Is all you wanna shout out and probably feel your skin burning so hot with anger and hurt.
They say friends come for a reason .. Well do they get embarrassed and angry for a stupid thing and run away later? Wow .. that's real brave! Anyway .. this post goes out to all the friends who've been there and ditched your friend who somewhere deep inside really misses you .. Please be there ..

PEACE
xoxoxo

I wonder!

Life is busy, life is congested. Life is easy, life is complex. Whatever or however I describe life I am sure it would never remain certain. It's such a rush all of a sudden, so much to do, no time to wait and see through it. Time doesn't wait, true! Just a few months back there I was, wondering how life would be ahead. Whether I'll be somewhere or with someone loved and looks like time just passed by.

It's not easy to confess what you feel, specially when you are used to keeping to yourself. I know how I am the secret locker of stories for my friends and loved ones. So annoying and frustrating really to know you have people around to share your thoughts with, your views, emotions and life to that matter but you just don't have the strength to share it, reason being you are so used to keeping emotions to yourself. Is it just me? Nope! I bet there are so many other people out there who love to keep to themselves and survive just fine.

Lack of trust is what it is maybe? I don't know. Can't really say! But one thing's for sure .. People find a confidant in someone or the other all the time. What hurts is when THAT CONFIDANT doesn't realize he/she has ruined the very faith in them to that matter in anyone by just letting out a simple secret told to them. Its so easy to make friends really, very easy! But to genuinely sort the truest ones out from the lot is quite a task and may take forever.

I wonder where loyalty is lost? No longer do you see people you bank on completely because something or the other will come in the way. May not be a bad intention but something -- maybe their nature changes, attitude, find a better friend, may get busy with life or relationships, busy with a breaking family .. Something or the other keeps a man in today's time from being a loyal friend or a lover.

Just hope for the best for people in the long run. Lets make loyalty and faith a regular thing from a rarity! It's so amazing to know you have someone you can bank on and I bet so many of us yearn to be belonged. Be faithful, be honest, don't bitch about your friends or partners. You never know what hurt her .. You never know  what will be the last time you see her/him again .. Cherish life, love and Friendship! It's a blessing in disguise! <3

I wonder when life would be great for all, without any heartbreaks. Imagine a life so happy! What bliss it would be! :)

Be loyal, Be honest, don't lie and belong to someone! <3
Peace!!!
XOXOXO