What else breaks with a break up?

Break ups! The word itself sends an Ouch down your mind.. Doesn't it?

Break up has its own lil pain and its own lil pluses (You don't say?). Strange is, to many of us it sounds tragic and to many of you, it might sound freedom. This world is crooked I tell you.

Break up is not necessarily with just your girlfriend or boyfriend or love, it can be with your unspoken crush, your friend, your best friend or even your imaginary boyfriend (don't go judging me).

Love and heartbreaks, all that is common, very sad, very tragic and very hurting blah blah blah (sorry for the lack of enthusiasm, but been there done that sort of a thing and its pretty much an everyday thing) .. So my point being (yes I do have a point) the most heart breaking break up is .. When you break up with your best friend.. Yes.. Before you go saying whatever, give it a deep thought, what would you do waking up and not having that one person you wanna complain about your lousy day or bad relation, your dispute with family or crappy colleagues at work? What would life be if your friend didn't kick your butt and get you going when you are low, or when she/ he comforted you when you thought you couldn't get out of your deep pit of dark? What if you BROKE UP WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND? Would you ever be able to fix that feeling, or ever replace that one true friend?

My bets are, you cannot. You may replace love, boyfriends or girlfriends, jump from one crush to another but a best friend? My friend you are in for some deep serious shit if your best friend is gone.. To that matter, you know how it sucks when your BFF doesn't have time for you or suddenly starts behaving in this strange uncalled manner, isn't that like so damn annoying? When they don't understand that their tiny change in behavior is magnified cuz you're their best friend, they're dumb, why don't they just say what's bothering them instead? You wanna kick some sense in them and say "bitch don't you dare leave me or I'll haunt you after death" ..

Love is complex, it's scary. Friendship? It's easy, sorted but very hard to maintain and uphold.

Always love your best friend, because if I didn't wake up tomorrow, I want my best friend to know that even when I died, he/ she was one of the last people I thought of before Poofed. Lol!

Here's wishing, friendships always remain the most vital part of our life and they be a part of our life forever.

Peace.
Xoxo

If You Were....

(This One is for you Brenda, My BFF)

If you were a stranger, look what you've come to be,
My very own happiness, magical indeed.
If you were lost, look what you've found,
You and Me together, aren't we the most grand friends around?

If you were in pain, look what you've overcome,
Happiness surrounds you, it's just a tap around.
If you felt uneasy, tell me what's it about,
You never know Babeh, we'll both sort it out.

I never knew you'd matter so much, never at all,
But I can't imagine my life, without you at all.
Oceans across, we wonder when we'll meet,
I promise, I'll love you, forever will it be.

If you were star, I'd wait all day to see you,
If you were a star, I'd wish the sun never shone.
If you were a Wish, You're such a dream come true,
You are so dear, I fear losing you.

People may come, people may go,
It's a part of life, they leave a mark whenever they go.
You're my best friend, no one can change that,
You'll always find me by your side.

Lots of love,
Now and Forever,
Tash.

P.S. Love you to the moon and back. XD

Stranger I fell for.. (2)

Chase crashed on his bed as soon as he reached his apartment and groaned as he buried his face in the pillow. His TV screen roared to life at 8:30 AM his second back-up alarm just in case. Chase was in no mind to get off his bed when he heard his phone nag him again, he mumbled under his breath and flipped it on his voice muffled against the pillow he spoke "Yep?" almost nonchalantly. It was Noel who said "Dude, are you even going to make it to the classes today? I have a very short tempered Girlfriend you know?".
For the nice man Chase was he fought the urge to insult him and said "Be there in an hour's time Noel."

Chase was what seemed like Lost for some odd reason, he picked up his black hoodie and shredded pair of denims and headed for the shower, his favourite time of the day. He usually had the speakers blasting music while he took a bath "Rock and Roll Baby" he exclaimed as he took a shower and sung along the song "Rockstar" By Nickelback "Heyyy Eh I wanna be a rockstar" .. Chase always thought of music to be a wonder. It was what seemed to make him smile or allow him whatever he wanted to do by being a constant assurance. He draped a towel on his waist and walked out the shower quickly getting dressed and doing a silly double take in the mirror checking the bounce in his hair "Dimwit" he muttered laughing. He grabbed his bag and downed a glass of juice before heading off. "Almost forgot" He said to himself in amusement and ran to his bed to pick up his phone and checked for calls and shoved the phone down his denims.

On his way to the classes, Chase stopped at the "Bittersweet Bouquet" to pick up a dozen of fresh lilies for Lidia who was Noel's only girlfriend who tolerated his banter for some odd reason. Chase really thought of them to be very cute together. They fought and made out like crazy all the time. He tipped the fair blonde girl generously before he left the flower shop. Chase to his amazement got in his car and placed the lilies almost so gently and smiled. His thoughts ran back to earlier that morning, the girl he bumped in with, the way she cussed and how tiny she looked, the confidence she held and how he got tongue tied and wished he'd spoken something in return. Chase reached his classes and saw Noel waiting there with looks as if he were left alone with a Hound Dog, "Chase. Dude. Buddy. You're a life saver. I love you man. In the most Brotherly way yeah?" Noel blabbered and Chase shook his head and waived him away "Go celebrate already, or should I just tell her what happened?" he raised a brow mockingly. Noel patted Chase's shoulder and ran off with his lilies.

Chase looked up into the sky and pushed away his shades almost immediately. It was strange that the weather almost in no time turned from sunny and bright to a gloomy one. "Great! Rains again? Don't remember any good happening with rains" he shook his head and threw the bag on his shoulder and locked the door when suddenly it started to drizzle. Chase saw a few girls from the class staring at him as he ran into the premises, nothing new, he knew what girls in his class wanted with  him and he was just not interested. Chase was running and returning a Hi to one of the guys when he slipped on the wet marble and landed on this girl who fell down now pinned under him. "For the love of ...." She exclaimed while rubbing her  temples "Could you get off me?" She scowled. Chase couldn't believe he'd been so clumsy TWICE the same day and scattered to his feet and apologetically offered a hand to her "I am so so sorry Ma'am I .." there she was, the girl from this morning. Her face was not an easy one to forget. She took his hand and stood up and said "What is with this city? Everyone wants to throw you off to the ground and .. " she squinted at Chase "YOU" she said accusingly, "YOU are the guy from this morning. The same guy who .. What on Earth .. JESUS! Is this how you meet people in general or am I just that lucky to be falling down like a stack of cards.?" Chase couldn't help hide a pleased smile for some reason, he was glad he saw her, but felt guilty to have knocked her down. He pulled her up and spoke this time "Chase. I'm Chase! I didn't mean to do that honestly I got distracted both the times." She didn't buy it "Sorry. I think you should be Sorry that's what." she scowled and tucked her hair behind her ear gently not taking notice of Chase as other females would've and simply scrammed off without a moment's delay obviously pissed at him.

Chase couldn't help but frown this time and look at her stomping her feet and walking off to a different direction, how he wished he could convince her he was innocent. "Strike 2" was what he said and shook his head, he thought he wouldn't see her again. But he was surprised that he even thought that before until he met her now. He wished he'd met her differently, not just knocking her down every time he saw her and again to his wonder he was amazed he had even wanted to meet her .. Let alone differently. Chase's skin burned with a feeling he couldn't comprehend. He didn't want to attend his class, he felt a surge of guilt and curiosity in him since morning. Yet he wanted to know who SHE was. Chase strolled down to the Cafeteria and sat on the most distant seat possible throwing his bag on the table and his head buried in his hands. "Who are you?" he asked almost in surprise to himself as if the image in his head would answer his question. He plugged in his earphones and let it take over him as he obviously wasn't in the right mind and recalled him say earlier "Don't remember any good happening with rains" .. He smiled shaking his head and sunk into the Sofa shutting his eyes, pulling over his Hoodie over his face.


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Stranger I fell for.. (1)

Bright sunny morning, the golden velvet rays torched towards the city moving lazily, they gathered their strength and lit up the sky. Birds were chirping, the city sparkled at the view of the river reflecting a million crystals as a reflection on them.

Another morning for Chase, his usual morning started by a song playing in his ears every morning. The song was kinda personal, none of his friends knew he loved this genre of music too.. The Alarm he set was this song "Love walked In".. He shook his head and buried his face under the pillow trying to shake off the music without having to search for the phone.. "Ah, shut up" he groaned in his sleepy voice and finally gave up shutting the music down and stretched like a little kitten arching his back and yawning. He sat up the edge of the bed and rubbed his sleepy eyes and wore his slippers and pulled up his shorts and T-shirt and his socks, lacing his shoes he went to freshen up and combed his hair right. He plugged his ipod earphones in his ear and locked the house tight and ran down the flight of stairs. Chase was a handsome guy, tall, fair, very well educated, angular features, Honey Brown eyes, well mannered and very social. He lived alone, because he chose to. He had broken up recently, the girl apparently was over his love, was that even an excuse to break up? He was now moving on, keeping happy with himself and his circle of friends.. He played the guitar, did his cooking.. he had an amazing grin, probably any girl could fall for him just the way he treated them, chivalrously. He was very grounded, no arrogance, but a lot of trust issues ever since he broke up.

He loved the run along the side of the banks of the river, no one usually bothered this early to run on the pavement for a morning jog, but he liked spending time with himself, focusing on things that matter and music he loved pumping in him as he ran on the grey pavement along the river .. The only thing separating them was the huge fence which was of course a precaution laid.

He ran a while till he felt his phone annoying him for a long time, he knew who it would be "Noel" he exclaimed even before he saw the screen and flung it open and stopped running and caught a breath "Hey man" he said, the voice across the phone said "Chase my Man, don't tell me I caught you in action" he was laughing hard. Chase shook his head and slid his hand inside his pocket and leaned of the fence as he spoke looking at the sunrise "Is this your idea of an early morning hello, do you need me to get you something on my way to classes?" He inquired. "Chase You always .. I can't believe you think I call your for favours man." He corrected "Well Yeah, could you get some a bunch of lilies for Lidia? I completely forgot it's been a year today and she'd totally whack me if I show up with nothing" He said. Chase was amused and shook his head as he grinned "I got your back, Noel" just as he started turned and press the call dead he bumped into someone and fell on the ground with a thud and cussed under his breath. "You crazy?" he argued as he got up and saw a girl trying to get up and he bit his tongue "Oh, I'm sorry Ma'am I didn't realize... " He broke off and extended a hand to help her up.

"Oww, Oww.. Jesus!" She complained as if she were a kid. "Awh Man" she exhaled and checked her scraped elbow and facepalmed. "Miss" Chase still standing offering his hand .. "I'm sorry". She looked at him  with her hazel eyes, her hair across her eyes and her lips parted  and frowning, her cheekbones highlighting her facial structure, her skin the color of honey milk. She smelled like peppermints. "That's alright, I didn't see you either" she grabbed his hand and stood up. It took Chase a minute to react to that as he saw her tiny figure and heard her silky voice. "Oh My God are you Ok Mr.?" She inquired demanding since Chase forgot how to speak. "Uhm Yeah.." he swallowed hard and she shrugged "Ok then .. Have a good day" she waved him bye and ran to the other direction with her tiny bag across her back. Chase stood there watching her go, his eyes still wide and open tracing her figure as she ran.. He stood there for a while till he felt his phone ringing again and parted his eyes painfully from her and to the screen and walked again glancing back but she was gone ...

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What I hate about you

There's so much to say .. So much to know .. So much to discover and all that's unsaid...
If I wrote things that mattered you'd call it boring and usual .. If I said I was honest you'd think it as a lie, you wouldn't trust me.

Hate is attractive, Hate is as pure as love, it doesn't take an effort to Hate, Love takes effort and love expects a lot. Hate is effortless, it's easy!

I am gonna say a few things I actually HATE about you which makes me want to come back for you:

1) I hate how I feel when you're not around, busy and away.
2) I hate how I forgive you so easily for all the wrongs.
3) I hate how easy it is to talk to you.
4) I hate how a simple Hello makes me feel better.
5) I hate how you know what to say to make me feel better.
6) I hate how you blow things up out of proportion for no reason.
7) I hate how funny you can be.
8) I hate how you misunderstand me.
9) I hate how you Hate me or ignore me sometimes.
10) I hate how realistic you are.
11) I hate how you just give up, when we are so close to being Ok.
12) I hate how you call my name and that makes me wanna go insane.
13) I hate how you know when I am low, you just know it, I don't know.
14) I hate it when you don't give me time, then just expect me to be alright?
15) I hate when you make me want to talk to you all day, it's so addictive I can't say.
16) The way you say "I Love you" The way you say "Calm down" makes me want to listen to you.
17) When you scold me I want to listen to you, I want to correct myself, I hate it.
18) I hate how perfect you are and how you manage to keep calm with situations.
19) I hate how you say we're best friends and the next minute say we might never be
 friends forever.
20) I hate the mood swings you have, they are like whip lashes.
21) I hate how you like the same music, how you talk of music.
22) I hate how you read so much, always reading, makes me wonder..
23) I hate how sarcastic you are sometimes..
24) I hate it when you know what I mean but you want to hear it from me anyway.
25) I hate how witty you are.
26) I hate the way you smile, it makes me forget my worries. Your grin is one of a kind.
27) I hate how mellow you can be, but choose to be a dumass instead.
28) I hate how you tell me to "Talk to the hand" or just call me crazy.
29) I hate how far you live .. we can't meet.
30) I hate when you say "so you won't tell me?" when I don't want to tell you things,
 but I end up telling them to you anyway.
31) I hate how you ask me whether its ok, when I lie you ask "Promise" and 
I blabber things out.
32) I hate how you push off a topic unattended and never react.
33) I hate how you calm me down when I stress.
34) I hate how you call me cute names.
35) I hate when you have to go, when You're not around.
36) I hate how other people are more important than me sometimes to you.
 But that's how it is supposed to be.
37) I hate how you make me jealous. No one can do that but you.
38) I hate it when you lie to me .. Tell me tall stories, I know the truth but I let you go on anyway ..
39) I hate having secrets from you.
40) I hate to think of us not being friends forever, would be a dead end .. NEVER! 

There are so many things I hate about you .. Or might really like about you .. Or don't bother! UH! 

P.S. It doesn't even make sense why I love everything about you.


Peace,
xoxoxo